Lightina Yagami
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- Feb 22, 2023
- 6
There's just way too much I wanna say, I would probably not even be able to remember everything I wanna say when I start writing one. I mean I've tried but I always end up throwing it away. I also have an issue with lying/never being 100%honest. Like especially in a suicide letter, I don't want ppl to know i'm not that special as I make myself out to be or that I'm not as good as they think. This may sound bad (probably bc it is) and I know many ppl feel the same way but I want people to feel incredibly sad when I'm gone or even if I'm in the hospital. Not that they deserve but I just do. The only people I don't want to feel bad are my cats and my little niece who looks up to me. I mean why would i admit that I hoped and prayed that every single on of them would die and that I still do for no real reason. Like I don't want to be remembered as the person who hoped/prayed that their loved ones would die (bc wtf, I'm exaggerating obviously but still wtf). Also I always end up talking way too much when I'm talking abt myself (if you didn't notice yet) Like I don't think I have enough paper for my suicide letter. However even tho I never had one in every single one of my attempts I still kinda desire to be able to write one. I want people to know that I've been trying for a long time and that the people who made me get to this point know that they're one of the reasons I'm gone.
Anyways I was curious, did you guys ever write a suicide note/letter or do you have the same issue I do?
Anyways I was curious, did you guys ever write a suicide note/letter or do you have the same issue I do?