I've had much stronger suicidal thoughts

[Tintypographer]

I've always imagined taking a one way flight to San Francisco, heading to the golden gate bridge in an Uber and heading straight across it to jump. I know they have been constructing a suicide net there. I've wondered how far along it is, I've thought about taking some of my old climbing gear, quickly tying a rope to the railing, rappelling down the 20 feet to the barrier and then scrambling to the edge and jumping. I feel like if I try to land flat the trauma will kill me even with the shortened 20 feet. Lately the overwhelming stress from work and family is so great all I can imagine is disappearing. I don't want to leave anything behind. Literally disappear. No return, no body, no note, no excuses. Just a one way flight and then jump. I have the money to do it and I would leave my phone and anything else behind. Just take the flight, land and go straight there. One backpack with some limited stuff in it. A short length of rope, my old climbing harness and a belay device then just let myself down, ignore everyone, scramble to the edge and fall. Flights are cheap one way in the 250 to 350 dollar range. I could even just go first class. I'm so down and want to stop feeling so useless.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you are suffering. I can imagine that it must be awful being under so much stress. I also want to completely disappear and be forgotten. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[CommitSudoku]

I'd honestly go for some other bridge, the more popular, the more watched you'll be and the more likely you'll be stopped or someone would try to rescue you immediately from the water. I didn't know about the suicide net, I find it intriguing but sad in a way. Such a net would really deter me from considering there so I guess it works even mentally (for some anyway). Plus I wouldn't want to die in California, personally. I wish you the best whatever you decide to do and whether you go or not. If not, I hope the stress on you lessens soon.

 

[Lost Magic]

I would seriously reconsider this. That bridge is infamous (as you know) for jumpers but with that net it just doesn't look right. Too much attention drawn towards it as well. Your choice, however.

 

[WadeingThru]

Lately the overwhelming stress from work and family is so great all I can imagine is disappearing. I don't want to leave anything behind. Literally disappear.

You could disappear without jumping.

 

[Looooser]

I've always imagined taking a one way flight to San Francisco, heading to the golden gate bridge in an Uber and heading straight across it to jump. I know they have been constructing a suicide net there. I've wondered how far along it is, I've thought about taking some of my old climbing gear, quickly tying a rope to the railing, rappelling down the 20 feet to the barrier and then scrambling to the edge and jumping. I feel like if I try to land flat the trauma will kill me even with the shortened 20 feet. Lately the overwhelming stress from work and family is so great all I can imagine is disappearing. I don't want to leave anything behind. Literally disappear. No return, no body, no note, no excuses. Just a one way flight and then jump. I have the money to do it and I would leave my phone and anything else behind. Just take the flight, land and go straight there. One backpack with some limited stuff in it. A short length of rope, my old climbing harness and a belay device then just let myself down, ignore everyone, scramble to the edge and fall. Flights are cheap one way in the 250 to 350 dollar range. I could even just go first class. I'm so down and want to stop feeling so useless.

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Check out the skyway bridge in Florida

 

[june]

That also has somthing similar to this

 

[solisoccasus]

I've always imagined taking a one way flight to San Francisco, heading to the golden gate bridge in an Uber and heading straight across it to jump. I know they have been constructing a suicide net there. I've wondered how far along it is, I've thought about taking some of my old climbing gear, quickly tying a rope to the railing, rappelling down the 20 feet to the barrier and then scrambling to the edge and jumping. I feel like if I try to land flat the trauma will kill me even with the shortened 20 feet. Lately the overwhelming stress from work and family is so great all I can imagine is disappearing. I don't want to leave anything behind. Literally disappear. No return, no body, no note, no excuses. Just a one way flight and then jump. I have the money to do it and I would leave my phone and anything else behind. Just take the flight, land and go straight there. One backpack with some limited stuff in it. A short length of rope, my old climbing harness and a belay device then just let myself down, ignore everyone, scramble to the edge and fall. Flights are cheap one way in the 250 to 350 dollar range. I could even just go first class. I'm so down and want to stop feeling so useless.

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I think that would not be good. Jumping, you might still live and worse. But your choice.