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Chairbed3

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Sep 14, 2025
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Does anyone else feel fear looking at their old pictures, specially videos?

I just watched an old video of me on my birthday and I felt a wave of fear in my stomach. Perhaps it shows what I once was and what I could have been if life didn't come to this. I just can't do anything to better my life, I feel paralysed. I feel like my brain doesn't work in the same way as before I don't know how to say it.

I was once full of potential and hope, it's so scary looking at my reflection in the mirror now. I can't believe it's the same face. My body and this world, nothing feels like mine. I live in constant fear.

I just have nobody to say this to.

Thanks for reading.
 
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