Venting I've failed. Alcohol won again.

[WornOutLife]

A few days ago, HERE I explained that I had decided to quit alcohol.
Yet, today is friday and I just couldn't cope with it. I felt so tempted that I bought two bottles of champagne and I'm already drinking.
I'm happy and thinking that I can solve all of my problems but deep down in my heart I know this is not reality, just an illusion!

I hate you, alcohol! I hope I can quit once and for all someday.

I guess I'll go to AA and meet people who are in my shoes.

Anyway, just wanted to vent a little.

Thanks a bunch for reading me,


Matt

 

[Nymph]

Aw im sorry you fell in it again:( quitting alcohol is hard...it takes trial and error with quitting stuff like this.

 

[Pookie]

Weekends are a trigger for alcohol consumption. Do you drink alone? Friends who drink a lot can also be triggers.

 

[Sakura94]

Hope AA is running during pandemic.
Yes, I really think you should go and give life one last shot.

 

[WornOutLife]

Aw im sorry you fell in it again:( quitting alcohol is hard...it takes trial and error with quitting stuff like this.

Thanks a lot, hun.
This is so hard! Well, at least I'm feeling great for now. I really needed to get out of the depression zone lol


@Pookie

I used to drink a lot because of my friends. They made me a kinda addict. However, now I drink alone. It makes me feel good and relaxed but in the end, I know this is not the answer and tomorrow I'll feel worse than today.

@VictoriaShadows

I hope so too.
Thanks a lot!

 

[Life_and_Death]

im going to be trying to cut back my weed consumption by keeping myself busy. maybe try a hobby or something?

 

[WornOutLife]

im going to be trying to cut back my weed consumption by keeping myself busy. maybe try a hobby or something?

Yeah that's a good idea. I was planning to start jogging and lose some weight but I always end up lazing around.
I'll try to have a fresh start from tomorrow on! This is so hard!

 

[Sakura94]

I hope so too.
Thanks a lot!

Best of luck! If it isn't try and not be downbeat it's an awful time for the entire world.

 

[virginiawoolf86]

I hope that you can make it work. Alcohol is tough to kick. Currently struggling myself. I just need long enough so I can take the SN.

 

[BitterlyAlive_]

Yeah that's a good idea. I was planning to start jogging and lose some weight but I always end up lazing around.
I'll try to have a fresh start from tomorrow on! This is so hard!

Baby steps. It's very difficult to curb these habits, try not to beat yourself up.

 

[Nymph]

Yeah that's a good idea. I was planning to start jogging and lose some weight but I always end up lazing around.
I'll try to have a fresh start from tomorrow on! This is so hard!

Good luck!!

 

[WornOutLife]

Baby steps. It's very difficult to curb these habits, try not to beat yourself up.

As an anime once said:

"From baby steps to giant strides! "

 

[x~Sophia~x]

You gave it your best shot, so don't beat yourself up. Maybe set a date to try again, but this time get some support - it's so hard to do it alone. Good luck

 

[Spitfire]

A few days ago, HERE I explained that I had decided to quit alcohol.
Yet, today is friday and I just couldn't cope with it. I felt so tempted that I bought two bottles of champagne and I'm already drinking.
I'm happy and thinking that I can solve all of my problems but deep down in my heart I know this is not reality, just an illusion!

I hate you, alcohol! I hope I can quit once and for all someday.

I guess I'll go to AA and meet people who are in my shoes.

Anyway, just wanted to vent a little.

Thanks a bunch for reading me,


Matt

Hey it is cool! I honestly figured the same thing would happen to me too.

Drunkenness could be avoided but you know it is whatever? I was hoping you would keep at it, but you know.. whatever?

 

[life-eternal]

alcohol addiction really is the devil. one that makes you want to hug and never let go kind of devil.

 

[SadGirl]

I drank, and took antidepressants, but currently I stopped, I was never addicted or anything. I smoked marijuana, but I also stopped. Nothing will stop me from feeling these horrible feelings. I am thinking of going to a psychiatric clinic in a few months. I don't know how I got to that point. I am deeply sad, depressed and anguished. Just venting too.

 

[heraclitus]

You didn't fail, you slipped - and can always rise again. Alcohol did not "defeat" you: if you are an alcoholic, you are ill.
Have you thought about going to a meeting (Zoom online during lockdown) and finding a sponsor?
You might not need to be here - suicidal feelings are common in early recovery. And later in recovery, too.
Get a sponsor, share and then see if your perspective changes.
Whatever you do, good luck!

 

[Spitfire]

I hope it all works out? Hahahh

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

Mate I hate to say it but I was expecting this post. I suffer from the same thing. In the US they call it AUD (Alcohol Use Disorder) which I kinda like. After my 14 months abstinent I've made sure to stick to my new rule of mostly abstinent (i.e. 4 days out of 7), for the six months since. It's not perfect but for now it's a realistic place for me to be. DM me if you wanna talk about it.

 

[Spitfire]

Keep on trying or whatever the fuck matters to you.. go for it.

 

[Tired_Tired]

I think the opposite from the other. I remembered you already planed and posted your journey. Why treat yourself so strictly. If you don't hurt anyone. Just want to find a way to release emotions. If you changed your mind. It's better to find a healthy way to keep going your life.

 

[Endeavour]

Dont worry dude, why stress over it. Stressing probably makes the desire to drink stronger. Like me, the more I think this life is a pile of shit, the more it makes me drink, the more I drink the less the pile of shit bothers me.

It's turning that process on it's head - so you don't feel the need to drink to stop the shitness.

Easier said than done.

A bit like people who eat for comfort - they probably feel bad because they're over weight. Their brain says "what made me feel better last time I felt shit about myself - I know - eat some chocolate cake" - so they do - then they feel shit for eating the chocolate cake because it made the problem stay - so their brain says - "what made me feel better last time I felt shit about myself - I know - eat some chocolate cake". - so they do - then they feel shit for eating the chocolate cake because it made the problem stay - so their brain says - "what made me feel better last time I felt shit about myself - I know - eat some chocolate cake"- so their brain says - "what made me feel better last time I felt shit about myself - I know - eat some chocolate cake". - so they do - then they feel shit for eating the chocolate cake because it made the problem stay - so their brain says - "what made me feel better last time I felt shit about myself - I know - eat some chocolate cake". Etc for ever and ever amen.

You need to find the switch and turn it off - or don't if you like beer :

 

[sourpink]

if you're serious about trying AA for support, I think it's worth a shot. the 12 step thing isn't for everyone but for some it's amazing and helpful. I've been to a couple NA meetings on video call platforms during the pandemic, and there are groups on different social media platforms specifically to provide information on how to attend meetings.
sending support and solidarity.
as cliché as it is, addiction recovery is rarely linear.

 

[signifying nothing]

I bought two bottles of champagne and I'm already drinking.

Is champagne your usual drink of choice? Does it have particular associations for you? Just seems a strange choice, so I'm wondering whether there might be some significance to it.

 

[WornOutLife]

Is champagne your usual drink of choice? Does it have particular associations for you? Just seems a strange choice, so I'm wondering whether there might be some significance to it.

I think I like champagne because it's not as "strong" as vodka and tequila. I can cope with it and it makes me feel "happy" really fast.

 

[Deleted member 17949]

Frustrating as this is I commend you for at least trying and making it a couple of days without drinking. Alcohol is a nasty habit. I have seen it to a lesser extent in my dad; he does not like to drink to cope with stress but from time to time he will slip back into doing it and think everything is great for a while before then suffering from the guilt and frustration of it.

It's not an easy journey but good job on trying. I hope you'll find it in you to keep working on this.

 

[WornOutLife]

Frustrating as this is I commend you for at least trying and making it a couple of days without drinking. Alcohol is a nasty habit. I have seen it to a lesser extent in my dad; he does not like to drink to cope with stress but from time to time he will slip back into doing it and think everything is great for a while before then suffering from the guilt and frustration of it.

It's not an easy journey but good job on trying. I hope you'll find it in you to keep working on this.

Hi there, my fav cat! Thanks a lot for your advice. I will try to do my best from now on. It's really hard!

 

[signifying nothing]

I think I like champagne because it's not as "strong" as vodka and tequila. I can cope with it and it makes me feel "happy" really fast.

That'll be the bubbles I think, happens to me too. You will have to think of something to celebrate each time you take a drink, make the most of the enjoyment whilst it lasts.

 

[muffin222]

I'm so sorry. I know it's frustrating, but relapse is part of the process to recovery. You haven't failed- you've merely hit a plateau that is allowing you an opportunity to assess what works, what doesn't, and how you can better proceed from here

 

[WinterIsComing]

I have trouble with garbage food...too many sodas
I know how anoying it is.....keep trying maybe the next will be 1 o 2 days sober