Help I've decided to do it. What are methods I could use?

[regasus]

Hello to the community, new user here. I hope I'm using this correctly, forgive me if I'm not.

My life has come to a breaking point - yet again. I've been struggling with suicidal ideation for nearly 10 years, but have never seriously attempted to catch the proverbial bus. Today I've reached a point where I just can't anymore.

Don't be mistaken, I am not about to up and do it right now - I want to make sure I choose the right method and research thoroughly. I just know I am going to do it.

So, my question to all of you, perhaps more experienced or well-read users would be: what methods do you personally fancy, and why? I'd love to read your reasonings. Thank you, and sending all of you strength out there.

 

[Halfhourdays]

What country are you in? Different methods are available in different places. SN isn't really available in the US, for example, while guns can be impossible to purchase for some.

 

[ForeverCaHa]

I plan to take SN (I'm based in the UK). My reasons are:
- I believe I can overcome the fear of drinking the solution better than the fear of other methods
- Relatively high success rate if the protocol is followed
- No major danger of lasting damage if the attempt fails

It does come with the whole 15-ish minutes of laying on the bed knowing you're going to die, but I think I can manage that. 15 minutes is nothing compared to the past 30 years after all.
Another down side is that it's a bit pricey. Between the SN itself, a hotel (I don't want to be found by friends or family), and travel to the hotel, there's a fair bit of cash involved. So, every failed attempt just means another wad of cash to be found.

 

[lilurki]

I plan on using a gun although it's a little brutal I don't have any loved ones in my life that I necessarily feel bad for scaring, although I do feel kind of sorry for the stranger that finds me.

 

[wham311]

Ya just wasted 3 days non-stop researching sn before finding out there are shipping issues. Pretty let down.

No way to get morphine huh

 

[galaxid]

I've had this really fucked up fantasy for a while where I ctb using a handgun. It feels like one of those options that I don't need to worry so much about beforehand, hence why I'm not a fan of SN, personally. I have panic attacks about dying plenty without actively taking poison and worrying about how dead I'll be for however long it takes. Guns are comparatively simple. Brutal yes, but effective.

I live in the US so I'm lucky I have that option. Otherwise walking in front of a train is second on the list.

 

[Hagi_Im]

Hello to the community, new user here. I hope I'm using this correctly, forgive me if I'm not.

My life has come to a breaking point - yet again. I've been struggling with suicidal ideation for nearly 10 years, but have never seriously attempted to catch the proverbial bus. Today I've reached a point where I just can't anymore.

Don't be mistaken, I am not about to up and do it right now - I want to make sure I choose the right method and research thoroughly. I just know I am going to do it.

So, my question to all of you, perhaps more experienced or well-read users would be: what methods do you personally fancy, and why? I'd love to read your reasonings. Thank you, and sending all of you strength out there.

Hi, my CTB method is based on N2O gas. The steps are roughly as follows: creamer, small N2O cylinders, mask, tube, oxygen pillow. What you need for this:
1) Take the creamer and fill the N2O cylinder with it and inflate it into a balloon so that there is little oxygen in the creamer. Next, hyperventilate the lungs, then inhale the gas from the balloon to feel how the gas works until the CTB itself.
2) Fill the oxygen pillow with N2O, it depends on which pillow you took, for example, for 75 liters it is 8 small cylinders.
3) Next, remove the creamer and connect the hose to the mask. That's basically it, the main thing here is to hyperventilate the lungs before putting on the mask. First, you will lose consciousness in about 1 minute, and in 5 you will die if you do everything correctly. I spent 60 dollars on everything, of course it depends on the country, somewhere it is more expensive, somewhere cheaper.

P.S. It is necessary to inflate it into a ball, since there is also pressure in the siphon.
This is roughly how it works

 

[onlyformyself]

Am only new same date with urs but I will use sn have been an onlooker for some time

 

[regasus]

What country are you in? Different methods are available in different places. SN isn't really available in the US, for example, while guns can be impossible to purchase for some.

I'm located in Eastern Europe. Guns are unfortunately impossible to come by.

I plan to take SN (I'm based in the UK). My reasons are:
- I believe I can overcome the fear of drinking the solution better than the fear of other methods
- Relatively high success rate if the protocol is followed
- No major danger of lasting damage if the attempt fails

It does come with the whole 15-ish minutes of laying on the bed knowing you're going to die, but I think I can manage that. 15 minutes is nothing compared to the past 30 years after all.
Another down side is that it's a bit pricey. Between the SN itself, a hotel (I don't want to be found by friends or family), and travel to the hotel, there's a fair bit of cash involved. So, every failed attempt just means another wad of cash to be found.

Thank you for your response. I'm also considering SN, however I have yet to read a comprehensible breakdown on the method. The waiting period is not an issue, as you put it, 15 minutes is nothing. Is it possible to purchase SN without access to the dark web?

I've had this really fucked up fantasy for a while where I ctb using a handgun. It feels like one of those options that I don't need to worry so much about beforehand, hence why I'm not a fan of SN, personally. I have panic attacks about dying plenty without actively taking poison and worrying about how dead I'll be for however long it takes. Guns are comparatively simple. Brutal yes, but effective.

I live in the US so I'm lucky I have that option. Otherwise walking in front of a train is second on the list.

Thanks for sharing. If not for my country's firearm laws (incredibly strict, I've never seen a gun in my life), it'd be my go-to method too. Violent, but effective and quick. Trains are a good idea, I just feel bad for the conductor and all the passengers.

Hi, my CTB method is based on N2O gas. The steps are roughly as follows: creamer, small N2O cylinders, mask, tube, oxygen pillow. What you need for this:
1) Take the creamer and fill the N2O cylinder with it and inflate it into a balloon so that there is little oxygen in the creamer. Next, hyperventilate the lungs, then inhale the gas from the balloon to feel how the gas works until the CTB itself.
2) Fill the oxygen pillow with N2O, it depends on which pillow you took, for example, for 75 liters it is 8 small cylinders.
3) Next, remove the creamer and connect the hose to the mask. That's basically it, the main thing here is to hyperventilate the lungs before putting on the mask. First, you will lose consciousness in about 1 minute, and in 5 you will die if you do everything correctly. I spent 60 dollars on everything, of course it depends on the country, somewhere it is more expensive, somewhere cheaper.

P.S. It is necessary to inflate it into a ball, since there is also pressure in the siphon.
This is roughly how it works

This is promising, thank you for typing it out. I might have to make an explanation diagram based on your description, sort of a step-by-step with visuals. Just to make sure I got everything, haha.

 

[deadbidaylight]

My method of choice is hanging. Materials and anchor point are variable, costs are cheap (or non existent if you already have an effective ligature), and can be done at anytime or anywhere.

Also extremely effective, and considered one of the most popular and lethal methods out there (full suspension hanging). There's a reason why it's so popular. If done right, you can be unconscious in as little as 4 seconds (not always common, but still typically around 10-15 seconds).

Lots of people opt for partial hanging but the SI prevents most from following through. I guess it's good for practice if you want to get it right before the actual act. But if you want a for sure way to go, full suspension is the better option. Once you kick out the chair, there's not much you can do if SI kicks in.

I also would prefer firearms, but in Canada they are really hard to get ahold of too.

My method of choice is hanging. Materials and anchor point are variable, costs are cheap (or non existent if you already have an effective ligature), and can be done at anytime or anywhere.

Also extremely effective, and considered one of the most popular and lethal methods out there (full suspension hanging). There's a reason why it's so popular. If done right, you can be unconscious in as little as 4 seconds (not always common, but still typically around 10-15 seconds).

Lots of people opt for partial hanging but the SI prevents most from following through. I guess it's good for practice if you want to get it right before the actual act. But if you want a for sure way to go, full suspension is the better option. Once you kick out the chair, there's not much you can do if SI kicks in.

I also would prefer firearms, but in Canada they are really hard to get ahold of too.

Also, welcome to SS. I'm sorry life has brought you here, but hopefully we can offer you support and information to help you choose an effective method if you are going to end your life. We are super supportive here.

 

[regasus]

My method of choice is hanging. Materials and anchor point are variable, costs are cheap (or non existent if you already have an effective ligature), and can be done at anytime or anywhere.

Also extremely effective, and considered one of the most popular and lethal methods out there (full suspension hanging). There's a reason why it's so popular. If done right, you can be unconscious in as little as 4 seconds (not always common, but still typically around 10-15 seconds).

Lots of people opt for partial hanging but the SI prevents most from following through. I guess it's good for practice if you want to get it right before the actual act. But if you want a for sure way to go, full suspension is the better option. Once you kick out the chair, there's not much you can do if SI kicks in.

I also would prefer firearms, but in Canada they are really hard to get ahold of too.

Also, welcome to SS. I'm sorry life has brought you here, but hopefully we can offer you support and information to help you choose an effective method if you are going to end your life. We are super supportive here.

Thank you for your kind words. Partial hanging seems to be the most 'doable' and cost-effective method out there so far. There's a thread on here with a collection of videos (super unsettling, but really educational), and judging from what I've seen so far, people pass out rather quick. I'm a bit scared of the few seconds between letting my weight down and losing consciousness - I can't stand the feeling of being choked in other contexts. Also, do you happen to know if an unsuccessful attempt in which you lose consciousness but don't die results in any long-term damage? I'm thinking brain damage from lack of oxygen, or perhaps damage to the respiratory/circulatory system?

 

[Ixtab69]

Thank you for your kind words. Partial hanging seems to be the most 'doable' and cost-effective method out there so far. There's a thread on here with a collection of videos (super unsettling, but really educational), and judging from what I've seen so far, people pass out rather quick. I'm a bit scared of the few seconds between letting my weight down and losing consciousness - I can't stand the feeling of being choked in other contexts. Also, do you happen to know if an unsuccessful attempt in which you lose consciousness but don't die results in any long-term damage? I'm thinking brain damage from lack of oxygen, or perhaps damage to the respiratory/circulatory system?

absolutely- irreversible brain damage will result from hanging for about 4 or 5 minutes...this will leave you a veggie

 

[Hagi_Im]

Thank you for your kind words. Partial hanging seems to be the most 'doable' and cost-effective method out there so far. There's a thread on here with a collection of videos (super unsettling, but really educational), and judging from what I've seen so far, people pass out rather quick. I'm a bit scared of the few seconds between letting my weight down and losing consciousness - I can't stand the feeling of being choked in other contexts. Also, do you happen to know if an unsuccessful attempt in which you lose consciousness but don't die results in any long-term damage? I'm thinking brain damage from lack of oxygen, or perhaps damage to the respiratory/circulatory system?

I understand you, I don't like the feeling of suffocation either. Fortunately, N2O blocks this feeling, and it's also cheap if you buy 10 small canisters. By the way, you can try to combine these methods, hanging and N2O. I saw some threads where people decided to use this method. https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/hanging-is-probably-very-painful.196293/#post-2882612

You can also take a look at this topic https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/most-painless.196897/#post-2890695

 

[Halfhourdays]

How about a tutorial for beginners? A guide to N20. If it's reliable, it should be a method,

 

[Hagi_Im]

How about a tutorial for beginners? A guide to N20. If it's reliable, it should be a method,

There is little known about this method, but it is very similar to inert gases and an exit bag. In principle, if you search on the Internet, you can find information. And yet, I would trust people in SS who have tried N2O on themselves. For example, I have tried it and I can say 100% that the gas works, but for CTB to work, you need to create the right conditions. In fact, there are different methods with N2O, it depends on which one the user likes. Fortunately, they are not complicated and understandable.

 

[FuneralCry]

I personally wish for a death as peaceful as possible, I wish for a peaceful guaranteed way to cease existing that gives me a death like falling into an eternal dreamless sleep but of course such is so cruelly denied for me with suffering seen as to force and prolong no matter what, it's all just so dreadful to me as all I wish for is to never exist ever again. I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer in this cruel, futile existence I always saw as a mistake, for me non-existence really is the only peace from this torturous existence of unnecessary suffering where I'm just waiting to cease existing anyway.

 

[SufferingInDenmark]

I plan to take SN (I'm based in the UK). My reasons are:
- I believe I can overcome the fear of drinking the solution better than the fear of other methods
- Relatively high success rate if the protocol is followed
- No major danger of lasting damage if the attempt fails

It does come with the whole 15-ish minutes of laying on the bed knowing you're going to die, but I think I can manage that. 15 minutes is nothing compared to the past 30 years after all.
Another down side is that it's a bit pricey. Between the SN itself, a hotel (I don't want to be found by friends or family), and travel to the hotel, there's a fair bit of cash involved. So, every failed attempt just means another wad of cash to be found.

i still haven't found a guide to SN i can comprehend

 

[deadbidaylight]

Thank you for your kind words. Partial hanging seems to be the most 'doable' and cost-effective method out there so far. There's a thread on here with a collection of videos (super unsettling, but really educational), and judging from what I've seen so far, people pass out rather quick. I'm a bit scared of the few seconds between letting my weight down and losing consciousness - I can't stand the feeling of being choked in other contexts. Also, do you happen to know if an unsuccessful attempt in which you lose consciousness but don't die results in any long-term damage? I'm thinking brain damage from lack of oxygen, or perhaps damage to the respiratory/circulatory system?

Yes prolonged asphyxiation causes brain damage. It doesn't take long. To ensure you CTB and don't end up in this state, you wanna make sure no ones around for at least half an hour. I would probably make sure you have even longer than that in case SI kicks in and you need a few extra minutes

 

[Ixtab69]

Thank you for your kind words. Partial hanging seems to be the most 'doable' and cost-effective method out there so far. There's a thread on here with a collection of videos (super unsettling, but really educational), and judging from what I've seen so far, people pass out rather quick. I'm a bit scared of the few seconds between letting my weight down and losing consciousness - I can't stand the feeling of being choked in other contexts. Also, do you happen to know if an unsuccessful attempt in which you lose consciousness but don't die results in any long-term damage? I'm thinking brain damage from lack of oxygen, or perhaps damage to the respiratory/circulatory system?

I sincerely don't understand why you favor partial hanging with all its risks and downsides when full suspension hanging would prevent and avoid all these?My humble two cents