I've decided enough is enough, maybe this year i'll ctb :(

[mrnamoshi]

I don't have any spirit from doing things in the life, the only wish i want is sweet death. Nothing satisfy me any more. it's sad i come to this conclusion after trying getting better for all years in my life. I can't do anything and i'm trapped in my mind wishing for ending all this suffering. I can't survive anymore for another years. i'm at my limit.

 

[destinationlosangel]

I'm so sorry to see you this way. I too am in a similar situation so i do understand. But I've given myself some time

 

[FuneralCry]

I just wish for non-existence as well, only a permanent release from all suffering appeals to me, I understand feeling so tired of it all. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[ThatGuyOverThere]

Seems like a rational decision, on your part.

I feel the same way, I have a long convoluted CTB plan, that will take multiple more years to finally achieve, but sometimes I wonder if it would be better to just jump the gun, and not do the more thought out one. reason being that things just get so bad that despite it being better to do it in a few years. I feel like the near 2-3 more years of this unnecessary suffering just isn't worth it.

Maybe I just crave death so much that it clouds my rational thinking and rational plan.