I’ve cracked the code !!!

[timetodie24]

Some of you may remember last week I was trying to decode a message I received. Thank you for all the suggestions as some of them helped me figure this out. I have finally realised the numbers in the message (1,6,0) relate to road numbers. I am allowed my ticket out of here now. There is a particular road I will walk down and step in front of a lorry/HGV.
I will definitely die, and my family/friends will be saved, if I follow all the clues in the message. I can't believe I have finally cracked it. I am excited for the end. I will prepare everything for this and align the date/time with the message. I'm aware that it is not a recommended method but it is what those in control want so I have 100% faith it will work and that they will then protect others. They have already proved their power so I believe.
Also, It is a fast road and I'll make sure it's heavy vehicle and will make it quick so not seen.

You'll all be glad to know I probably won't post much anymore as I prepare. Then soon hopefully gone forever

 

[uncat_]

this sounds more like psychosis, actually.
youre just going to traumatize the people in the vehicle.

 

[timetodie24]

this sounds more like psychosis, actually.
youre just going to traumatize the people in the vehicle.

It is not psychosis and I have proof of that (won't bore you with it as don't need to justify myself to anyone)

I am aware it could traumatise others and I feel guilty about that. It's sad but not my fault as I didn't choose method, those in control did. I trust in them that this is for the greater good. There will be more deaths in more traumatic ways if I don't comply. So trust me , this is the lesser of the evils , I promise that !

 

[uncat_]

It is not psychosis and I have proof of that (won't bore you with it as don't need to justify myself to anyone)

I am aware it could traumatise others and I feel guilty about that. It's sad but not my fault as I didn't choose method, those in control did. I trust in them that this is for the greater good. There will be more deaths in more traumatic ways if I don't comply. So trust me , this is the lesser of the evils , I promise that !

im sure youd be saving more lives by checking yourself into a hospital

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Please, please, please seek someone out who can help you.

 

[stupidhuman]

You're 100% psychotic with or without substance use.
The stuff you say are picture book psychosis symptoms.
Don't involve other people. They don't deserve the consequence of your behavior.

 

[timetodie24]

Please, please, please seek someone out who can help you.

I got help to decode the message and that was all the help I needed. This is the only way . This is a good thing, a weight has been lifted and I feel the best I have in a long time at the thought of it

You're 100% psychotic with or without substance use.
The stuff you say are picture book psychosis symptoms.
Don't involve other people. They don't deserve the consequence of your behavior.

As I said above, 100% not-psychotic, no substance use and I don't even drink.
This will save others, they deserve that, they deserve to live and be happy.

 

[Esokabat]

Psychosis and schizophrenia.
I know nobody can convince you, this is more for others to be able to recognize. I already mentioned this on your previous post and I was sad to see how many people humored you by trying to decipher random messages. People on this forum, please don't encourage people with clear signs of mental illness who are clearly not able to make an informed decision about life and death

 

[stupidhuman]

I got help to decode the message and that was all the help I needed. This is the only way . This is a good thing, a weight has been lifted and I feel the best I have in a long time at the thought of it

As I said above, 100% not-psychotic and no substance use at all.
This will save others, they deserve that, they deserve to live .

It's very difficult for me to understand your logical thought of everything you've written.
I'm sorry to say my brother / sister but what you are experiencing is a psychotic episode. Like I said psychosis doesn't involve substance use. It's not about that. It's about everything you've written.
I'd really like to understand why the things seem to make sense to you but not anyone else in the comments. Take a deep breath and realize what you're experiencing is a psychotic episode.
Google for psychotic episode symptoms if you won't believe me.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

If you want to ctb then that is your decision and I respect that, but I don't think that your method is a very good one. You are likely going to traumatize someone by doing this. There is also something kind of concerning and odd about some of your posts, such as this one talking about decoding a message. Have you ever tried breaking all of these things down and thinking about them a bit more critically? Sometimes we tend to see patterns where they dont exist due our brains trying to constantly make sense of thw world around us. Hence why I am asking this.

While it is in your right to ctb, I would recommend going to see a professional first, just in case. I feel like there may actually be a chance that you don't want to ctb and seeing someone may help you at least confirm that you are making the right choice. You don't have to tell them about your plans to ctb or anything. I just feel very concerned over your well-being at the moment.

 

[snsiisdion]

I know I'm just repeating what everyone else is saying but you are most likely experiencing a psychotic episode. My uncle has schizophrenia and he experiences episodes like this constantly. You should visit a specialist, you dont have to tell them about your plans, just visit them and talk. What is happening to you isnt normal, but is treatable. Sit down and think about it.

 

[Dusk till dawn]

This is more of a psychosis, trust me, there's no supernatural forces commanding you, you won't be saving anyone by your death, if anything, suicide is a way to relieve yourself from the thorns of this hellish life that we've been cursed with, some people suicide because they feel like they're a burden to their family and only consume and don't produce, i can relate with that as a reason because it's one of my reasons for wanting to die as well, but in your case it seems like you believe there's some supernatural powers or entities ordering you to do things or otherwise your family will be harmed, don't trust some hallucinations or dreams or psychosis, there is no evidence for supernatural powers or entities, there's only evidence for psychosis and hallucinations, please reconsider your decision and experiences from a logical point of view in accordance with scientific evidence over hallucinations and psychosis, i hate saying this especially to suicidal people and it leaves a bitter taste in my mouth to even say this as an advice, but i'll say it

Reach out to a professional psychiatrist to at least see if this is a psychosis or a state of hallucinations

If you're not willing to reach to a psychiatrist and you already made up your mind and you believe those are calls from a supernatural entity or powers, it's your own choice, nobody can stop you, i respect your autonomy, but please take some time to think about these "calls from an unknown power or entity" from a logical point of view that aligns with scientific evidence instead of just listening to your guts, don't have blind faith that these encounters were real at all

 

[keg-ireland]

I got help to decode the message and that was all the help I needed. This is the only way . This is a good thing, a weight has been lifted and I feel the best I have in a long time at the thought of it

As I said above, 100% not-psychotic, no substance use and I don't even drink.
This will save others, they deserve that, they deserve to live and be happy.

Look how many of us are telling you that you are going through a psychotic episode. This "decoding" messages is all nonsense.

Please trust us all here that genuinely care about you. Speak with your psychiatrist about what you are thinking and get the help you need.

 

[betternever2havbeen]

I got help to decode the message and that was all the help I needed. This is the only way . This is a good thing, a weight has been lifted and I feel the best I have in a long time at the thought of it

As I said above, 100% not-psychotic, no substance use and I don't even drink.
This will save others, they deserve that, they deserve to live and be happy.

It really sounds like psychosis but it's very hard to get through to anyone experiencing it that what they believe isn't real. But please just talk to a doctor and tell them all this. There is no code, no one is controlling you. You're hearing voices because of a psychotic episode and you need medication.

Bloody hell this is all really worrying and scary. I know how shit MH services are everywhere, but I really hope OP seeks help and they take him seriously before he acts on this.

 

[ferrie]

It really sounds like psychosis but it's very hard to get through to anyone experiencing it that what they believe isn't real. But please just talk to a doctor and tell them all this. There is no code, no one is controlling you. You're hearing voices because of a psychotic episode and you need medication.

Bloody hell this is all really worrying and scary. I know how shit MH services are everywhere, but I really hope OP seeks help and they take him seriously before he acts on this.

OP has stated in other threads that they've spoken to mental health professionals and believe they don't have schizophrenia or any form of psychosis bc they would have shown other traits even though they didn't tell anyone about the entity controlling them. There have also been recent posts from this acc written from the perspective of the entity having taken control. Many people have encouraged them to seek help and tell someone about the entity, but they are adamant that nothing can be done & that it is a safety risk for others if they are cut off from the entity

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I got help to decode the message and that was all the help I needed. This is the only way . This is a good thing, a weight has been lifted and I feel the best I have in a long time at the thought of it

I'm sorry, but you need other type of help. You really truly need to seek out some professional psychiatric help to help you understand that the voices you hear aren't real. Do you really believe that everyone else here telling you the same thing is lying to you? No one wants you to hurt yourself, or anyone else for that matter, under your present circumstances. You need to get your disorder diagnosed and treated. Really.

 

[cowboypants]

You should listen to what the majority of the people are saying here. I echo their thoughts as well. There is no bigger power controlling us than us. I can relate to what you are in. Probably you know deep inside.

Sometimes our brains try hard to find stuff out of nothing, idk why it does but some of us are more prone to it. I request that you ask your family or whoever you live with to take to a doctor. The thing you are trying to attempt is NOT THE ANSWER

 

[Esokabat]

OP has stated in other threads that they've spoken to mental health professionals and believe they don't have schizophrenia or any form of psychosis bc they would have shown other traits even though they didn't tell anyone about the entity controlling them. There have also been recent posts from this acc written from the perspective of the entity having taken control. Many people have encouraged them to seek help and tell someone about the entity, but they are adamant that nothing can be done & that it is a safety risk for others if they are cut off from the entity

I agree… Mental health conditions do not show up on blood test, on CT, they are not externally visible. If OP doesn't tell their mental health professional about an external entity controlling them and sending them messages and demands, including requesting their own death, through a very painful and traumatic way, and warning of hurting others if demands are not met, then certainly no mental health professional will diagnose anything. Mental health professionals cannot read anyone's mind.

 

[ferrie]

I agree… Mental health conditions do not show up on blood test, on CT, they are not externally visible. If OP doesn't tell their mental health professional about an external entity controlling them and sending them messages and demands, including requesting their own death, through a very painful and traumatic way, and warning of hurting others if demands are not met, then certainly no mental health professional will diagnose anything. Mental health professionals cannot read anyone's mind.

I agree with the concerns about OP's state, and I hope they're able to slow down and make a rational and safe decision. I really doubt they will tell anyone about the entity though. They've stated that people around them are punished when they don't follow the rules, and one of the rules is to not let people know about the entity. For OP's sake, I hope something can be done about their situation peacefully

 

[timetodie24]

Thank you all for your misguided concern.
Look up 'targeted individuals' if you don't believe me . It is not psychosis and I'm sure none of you have credentials to diagnose.

I do appreciate people are just trying to help and I won't enter pointless arguments for all our sakes. But I hear you all, I have read about psychosis, I have weighed up all the evidence. I have carefully considered all my options, outcomes etc. I have 2 degrees in psychology so know about mental illness and how to properly assess evidence. I did seek mental health help just incase . I had a mental health assessment with a psychiatric nurse less than 2 weeks ago who said I had 'low mood and anxiety' but no evidence of psychosis/ other thought disorders and good insight. I also had GP appt. and I did tell the truth. I told them something was controlling thoughts and saying bad things happen if don't follow rules. They weren't concerned either and said I was just anxious. So they agree with me.
I also want to make clear this is not my only reason for ctb. It is my reason for using this method. But I have many other reasons for ctbing and first tried 4 years ago long before I was being controlled like this. I have tried so many mental health treatments including meds, therapy, inpatient etc. This is not an impulsive decision.

I don't need or want help or advice . I just wanted to share this good news and update you all. Sorry don't mean to argue or seem ungrateful. Many of you are kind and genuine and I know you have your own struggles yet take time to offer support.

I wish you could see this as good news, freedom and hope for me but I understand you can't. But please don't be concerned or sad for me. It is the best news I've had in a long time and makes me happy for once. I just wanted to share my happiness. I have wanted death for a long time and now I'm closer.

Take care and hope you all find peace somehow, genuinely .

 

[Esokabat]

Even if we ignore the external entity that is controlling you, sending you messages, wants you to die and threatens to hurt others… all that aside. You claim you are mentally healthy. However how many mentally healthy people you have met that want to die by causing their own body the maximum amount of pain and suffering.
I mean people in this forum are travelling thousands of miles, spending thousands of dollars, get involved with illegal activities, testing, buying, syntethising, smuggling, applying for foreign clinics, buying guns, learning the dark web, getting scammed, getting police checks, all in the search of a peaceful, painless death. You don't see on this forum people requesting protocols that would provide the maximum amount of physical pain and physical trauma. That is just not where a healthy mind goes

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope that you find the freedom you search for, best wishes

 

[EvisceratedJester]

Thank you all for your misguided concern.
Look up 'targeted individuals' if you don't believe me . It is not psychosis and I'm sure none of you have credentials to diagnose.

I do appreciate people are just trying to help and I won't enter pointless arguments for all our sakes. But I hear you all, I have read about psychosis, I have weighed up all the evidence. I have carefully considered all my options, outcomes etc. I have 2 degrees in psychology so know about mental illness and how to properly assess evidence. I did seek mental health help just incase . I had a mental health assessment with a psychiatric nurse less than 2 weeks ago who said I had 'low mood and anxiety' but no evidence of psychosis/ other thought disorders and good insight. I also had GP appt. and I did tell the truth. I told them something was controlling thoughts and saying bad things happen if don't follow rules. They weren't concerned either and said I was just anxious. So they agree with me.
I also want to make clear this is not my only reason for ctb. It is my reason for using this method. But I have many other reasons for ctbing and first tried 4 years ago long before I was being controlled like this. I have tried so many mental health treatments including meds, therapy, inpatient etc. This is not an impulsive decision.

I don't need or want help or advice . I just wanted to share this good news and update you all. Sorry don't mean to argue or seem ungrateful. Many of you are kind and genuine and I know you have your own struggles yet take time to offer support.

I wish you could see this a good news, freedom and hope for me but I understand you can't. But please don't be concerned or sad for me. It is the best news I've had in a long time and makes me happy for once. I just wanted to share my happiness. I have wanted death for a long time and now I'm closer.

Take care and hope you all find peace somehow, genuinely .

If you have 2 psychology degrees then I would assume that you would know about things like misdiagnoses. They may have missed something so it would be good to get another opinion just in case.

 

[betternever2havbeen]

Please keep posting @timetodie24 we might not understand what you're experiencing but you can trust us.

 

[Tesha]

Hi @timetodie24. I've responded on your other threads.

Does your family still notice that you're not quite there still? I know you said you didn't want to talk to them because of the risk, but maybe you could at least tell them which road your message is telling you to go to? Maybe you could tell us? Are you still linking it with the date you also deciphered?

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Tell your clinician the WHOLE truth, that voices in your head are telling you to harm yourself and that if you don't, others are going to be harmed. There is no clinician worth his salt who is going to overlook that and chalk it up to only anxiety. If you're so certain you are right, then you shouldn't have any reservation about sharing your concerns with someone and defending to them what you believe to be the truth.

 

[timetodie24]

Even if we ignore the external entity that is controlling you, sending you messages, wants you to die and threatens to hurt others… all that aside. You claim you are mentally healthy. However how many mentally healthy people you have met that want to die by causing their own body the maximum amount of pain and suffering.
I mean people in this forum are travelling thousands of miles, spending thousands of dollars, get involved with illegal activities, testing, buying, syntethising, smuggling, applying for foreign clinics, buying guns, learning the dark web, getting scammed, getting police checks, all in the search of a peaceful, painless death. You don't see on this forum people requesting protocols that would provide the maximum amount of physical pain and physical trauma. That is just not where a healthy mind goes

But surely if someone wants to die very badly than pain doesn't matter. I don't see how it's any more 'unhealthy' as many away from SS see all suicide as non- healthy minds ?

Hi @timetodie24. I've responded on your other threads.

Does your family still notice that you're not quite there still? I know you said you didn't want to talk to them because of the risk, but maybe you could at least tell them which road your message is telling you to go to? Maybe you could tell us? Are you still linking it with the date you also deciphered?

Telling anyone the road so they can stop me would be idiotic. May still be linked to the date

 

[ferrie]

OP it is possible to survive being run over. It's actually more common than people assume. What happens in your situation if you survive?

 

[timetodie24]

It is very highly unlikely over 50mph (miles), many sources state this and that's just a regular car nevermind bigger vehicles .
There is no chance I will survive if I follow all the clues in the message. I will take more time to ensure I've picked up on every clue. I'd imagine if I did survive I would have life changing injuries which is why it's important I follow the message fully. I trust that if I do, I will die.
But even if we forget about the messages for a second, at high speeds a big truck will crush a human body. Will aim my head/neck under wheel too.

OP it is possible to survive being run over. It's actually more common than people assume. What happens in your situation if you survive?

 

[ferrie]

It is highly unlikely over 50mph (miles), many sources state this and that's just a regular car nevermind bigger vehicles .
There is no chance I will survive if I follow all the clues in the message. I will take more time to ensure I've picked up on every clue. I'd imagine if I did survive I would have life changing injuries which is why it's important I follow the message fully. I trust that if I do, I will die.
But even if we forget about the messages for a second, at high speeds a big truck will crush a human body. Will aim my head/neck under wheel too.

Survival rates at 50 mph are 30%, which I would personally consider fairly high. Survival continues to decrease the faster the vehicle is going, but there are a lot of variables in this that are out of your control. Drivers may not be able to stop before hitting you, but they will have some reaction of slowing down before they hit you & will instinctually try to swerve to avoid you, impacting your ability to aim for the wheel. Please consider all possibilities, so that if you do choose to pursue this it's well thought out & as safe as you can make such an uncontrollable scenario