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- Feb 29, 2020
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It's been a while that I've been thinking about this - and at the beginning I'm not sure how serious I felt about it, but now I feel as sure as I think anyone can feel about this. I really want to die - whether it's now or in a few years - whatever - I want to find a way to make this happen.But reading & looking on the internet makes it seem pretty damn difficult. You either have to do something really violent or painful to yourself or somehow manage to get hold of controlled substances that are very expensive/hard to get hold of. I also live at home with my parents and it's difficult to do much of anything without them noticing & I also don't want to incriminate myself. The only way I've come across that seems peaceful enough is heroin overdose but have absolutely no idea how to get my hands on that. I keep thinking that the best thing really would be to somehow find a local dealer & that way I don't have to worry about ordering it through the mail and potentially getting caught doing that. But yeah, not the slightest clue how to source a local heroin dealer. I don't imagine that they go around advertising their services too widely. Anyone have any thoughts for me on this? Would be incredibly grateful. Honestly nothing I want more than to just die. The rest of my days are going to be spent counting down the days until I can do it.