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alexit
Mage
- Jun 3, 2020
- 509
I've changed careers multiple times. I'd do something as long as I could before it got hard. Science. Journalism. Coding. The truth is I'm not good at anything. And now I really got in over my head. I managed to con myself into a high paying developer role, thinking I would pick up whatever I didn't know. I'm at the point where the work has gotten serious. I think I'm going to be fired when they realize I'm a fraud. And I could try getting another job, but honestly I don't have any skills. I've been a career con artist, like the movie Catch Me If You Can, except I haven't done anything illegal, just professions not requiring a license. And even if I thought I did have skills, I don't want to work. I'm tired of life. It's just a heap of pain that will continue until I die. I've been suicidal for years, two decades now, and have attempted multiple times. I'm hoping this week I find something that does the job, unlike me.