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not real.
- Jun 18, 2021
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i'm basically dissociated all the time, living layers above my body, detached from my mind, my memories, family, reality...
i don't think i am real.
even using the words "i", "my". the words, they trigger me.
i think this dissociation comes from not wanting to accept the world i live in. i don't want to be associated with it. it's too bad to be real.
now that i'm getting closer to end all this, i feel like i'm being forced to feel real. it's like it's too real now. it's traumatizing to acknowledge this evil reality. but i have to face it all one last time, if i want out. this is scary. please i hope i can do it. i believe i can. i want to, even if it hurts, even if the reality is too overwhelming for me.
i guess this was a vent. maybe one of you can relate.
good luck.
i don't think i am real.
even using the words "i", "my". the words, they trigger me.
i think this dissociation comes from not wanting to accept the world i live in. i don't want to be associated with it. it's too bad to be real.
now that i'm getting closer to end all this, i feel like i'm being forced to feel real. it's like it's too real now. it's traumatizing to acknowledge this evil reality. but i have to face it all one last time, if i want out. this is scary. please i hope i can do it. i believe i can. i want to, even if it hurts, even if the reality is too overwhelming for me.
i guess this was a vent. maybe one of you can relate.
good luck.