Its time to say goodbye

[Jezzibell]

Hi,

I wanted to document what has happened. 5omorrow I do bowel prep and eliminate water.

So I was sectioned by landlady at terrible b&b who called police. They forced me into hospital. I was there for 3 weeks, not allowed to stand up so got weaker.

Everything I've done has gone wrong. I've lost 1000s on hotel reservations and flight reservations. Terrible brain fog. I transferred £300 to myself and it hasn't gone through. I have no money.

So it begins

 

[Unwr!tten]

can you explain the method a bit more? I'm a little confused.

 

[Jezzibell]

I'm on my way out. Its OK . I have the sn, meto, domperidone, amytriptilene. I am worried about
- I forgot to connect vpn. Can sky call police in italy and degradation of sn
I weigh 20 kgs and will ctb with 100mg. Will that compensate

can you explain the method a bit more? I'm a little confused.

See above please

 

[Foreverix]

I weigh 20 kgs and will ctb with 100mg.

You weigh only 44 pounds?

...am I missing something?

 

[Jezzibell]

I am willing to use camera or whatever app so you can see how it works

You weigh only 44 pounds?

...am I missing something?

No. Thats what I weigh
I suffer with an eating disorder

 

[SmollMushroom]

Keep us updated. Damn 20 kg! I'm very sorry for your condition, I can't even imagine how would that be.
In any case, we are here if you need to chat or vent or support in general, whatever your plans are!
If you are determined to ctb, I wish you a peaceful journey and that everything goes smoothly!

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm on my way out. Its OK . I have the sn, meto, domperidone, amytriptilene. I am worried about
- I forgot to connect vpn. Can sky call police in italy and degradation of sn
I weigh 20 kgs and will ctb with 100mg. Will that compensate

I'm sorry you have to suffer so much. with 100mg of SN? or ami?

 

[Jezzibell]

People with EDs see

Special considerayions for folk that are malnourished or just come out of IP

We are so lucky to have the NHS. In italy they are completely incompetent and caused severe refeeding by starting on 5000 cals per day without the regime of first starting with supplements and then a base of 500 calories which is increased by 100 cals per day. My body is carrying 15lbs of water...

sanctioned-suicide.net

I will be dead by Monday morning, I have no choice. I've run out of money. It's well overdue and I'm excited by it. I'm happy to stream the sn finale but don't know if a way. If you know hiw, please tell me

I'm sorry you have to suffer so much. with 100mg of SN? or ami?

Sn. I've been travelling with it for 5 months
I start appetite suppressant tomorrow -mysimba. I will keep trying to reduce edema.

Mods - please delete account on Monday day if you don't see a post to this thread

 

[Jezzibell]

In my condition, I cannot think through what needs to be done. I will cancel all bank accounts, delete all emails and completely trash all browser activity including this and ed support forum. I will post until I ingest sn. If noone wants to watch then I will reset phone. I've booked.abfinal flight to Dublin but I won't take it. O4 I might. People who can do me harm won't find me

 

[Life Is My Coffin]

I've booked.abfinal flight to Dublin but I won't take it. O4 I might.

why do you keep booking flights and not going on them?

 

[SadSack]

why do you keep booking flights and not going on them?

I admittedly had to re-read this a few times myself.

But what I'm assuming they're saying is that they missed out on their flights due to being forced into the hospital from that phone call incident. And after all of their money getting wasted(on missed trips and the mishap with their final 300) during that ordeal they're broke.

If I'm following correctly.

 

[Jezzibell]

why do you keep booking flights and not going on them?

When you are severley malnourished. You cannot remember what you've done and do it again. Like with me hotels. I would book one then forget, do it again. Forget. It's called brain fog. You can see from my body that there are not enough calories or fat reserves for the brain to maintain usual functioning

 

[Life Is My Coffin]

When you are severley malnourished. You cannot remember what you've done and do it again. Like with me hotels. I would book one then forget, do it again. Forget. It's called brain fog. You can see from my body that there are not enough calories or fat reserves for the brain to maintain usual functioning

Yeh I see what you mean you look just like Eugenia Cooney maybe even worse. I seriously hope you can get better, Hope those steps are being taken

 

[venin.n]

I'm sorry you got to this situation. Can I help you with something?

 

[idk3]

I'm here to support you in any way possible, and very much hoping that whatever you choose to find peace goes according to plan.

 

[Jezzibell]

why do you keep booking flights and not going on them?

I admittedly had to re-read this a few times myself.

But what I'm assuming they're saying is that they missed out on their flights due to being forced into the hospital from that phone call incident. And after all of their money getting wasted(on missed trips and the mishap with their final 300) during that ordeal they're broke.

If I'm following correctly.

Basically, the hospital put me in refeeding syndrome. It is a fatal condition. They didn't gradually increase calories or start regime properly, they gave me 5k from the get go

 

[Weltall]

You poor thing. I'm so sorry you're dealing with this. If I could transfer parts of my body to you, I would do it in an instant.
Do your best to see straight with the fog.
Let us know if you need anything.

 

[Jezzibell]

Yeh I see what you mean you look just like Eugenia Cooney maybe even worse. I seriously hope you can get better, Hope those steps are being taken

I'm sorry you got to this situation. Can I help you with something?

I'm here to support you in any way possible, and very much hoping that whatever you choose to find peace goes according to plan.

You poor thing. I'm so sorry you're dealing with this. If I could transfer parts of my body to you, I would do it in an instant.
Do your best to see straight with the fog.
Let us know if you need anything.

Your words mean everything to me. Its not just the anorexia but I'm about to face a legal calamity which my mother started. I'm truly done. If anything I want to get skinnier. I am taking on more food 5han I've done and I feel better but its only because I will die that it doesn't bother me

 

[アホペンギン]

Reading this thread makes me feel so sorry for you.. I don't even know what to say.
I hope you can feel better soon and hopefully the brain fog you're suffering from doesn't cause you to do anything too bad.

 

[Jezzibell]

Basically, the hospital put me in refeeding syndrome. It is a fatal condition. They didn't gradually increase calories or start regime properly, they gave me 5k from the get go

I have allowed one more day because edema and stomach have started clearing. This cannot fail
So miss Tuesday please if no post. I won't be interrupted until some time that day. Monday night ill be alone all night so no intervention possible -

 

[absolutelyyou]

My heart goes out to you, eating disorders are hell and I'm so sorry it's one you are trapped in. I hope you can find the peace you deserve.

 

[Jezzibell]

So. Because of my ED - i cannot fast completely. I will vomit everything, take lax and diuretics.my bp is very low and I have to make sure I'm strong enough to finish once 8ve started. I've spent most of the day clearing stuff to nord. I'm exhausted. Should I drink alcohol. Not a lot, but it may help with amytriptilene overdose on top of sn. Amytriptilene first or second?

 

[Jezzibell]

I'm loading lax and diuretics as I go. Even purging liquids. Like i say, I have an eating disorder and I find it hard to control food. I am still taking mysimba for appetite control. BUT I'm out of all food now almost and cannot get downstairs so thats one thing.

 

[Jezzibell]

Ok. So after I understood what SI stands for, I did some research. I dont think this will apply to me but who knows.

I usually push the boat out to the last minute when there is no time not to do anything. I may not be able to in this instance.

It feels wierd but strangely exciting to know you are facing your final curtain

 

[cherrypiegonnadie]

I wish you the best and deeply hope you find ur sweet release. Please be well, you were and are very strong.

 

[tiredone]

Wishing you all the best. Least i can do.
I am really sorry how life turned out for you.
I wish i could give you a hug.

 

[DeadManLiving]

I almost dies after loosing so much weight after a car crash. One day I start stuffing myself full of food just to get it over with, and 4 hours the pain grows and next thing I'm in the ER with a pump thought my nose and Drs. Scrambling all over. My stomach exploded (not exacly) but it disintended and expanded all over my body as it blew up like a baloon, stomach linining was reach my lungs putting pressure against entire upper body. CAT scan images are in textbook probably, after asking permission for CAT scan images to be published first massively disintended stomach that didn't burst.

 

[letsgetittogo]

Wishing you peace

 

[CRT Seal TV]

Can I ask what the legal calamity is that your mother is putting you through?

 

[ForeverBroken]

My heart goes out to you. I am so sorry for your situation.