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somniummalum
Student
- Jul 3, 2020
- 119
Since my SN will arrive tomorrow (tracking suddenly jumped to my country), I've started the 48h regime by Stan with some Meto at 16:00.
Now I'm just cleaning my appartment, packing all my clothes, gave most of it to Humana (charity), writing some delayed e-mails, in which I will link a farewell letter. I'm not sure if I even have to say anything to these people anymore, maybe they don't even care. I don't know.
I've packed all my meds etc. for SN and booking a nice hotel room now. Have Xanax for sedation. Feeling really hungover, nervous, but also determined and kind of reliefed that I can finally have an out. It feels so calming to know that I don't have to go on longer. I feel at piece really, more than ever before.
Guys, even though I was not here for a long time, you've been awsome. This community is supportive asf. I felt understood here. Thank you for everything. I will probably be here when I'm leaving, will tell you how I feel while doing SN.
If everything goes right, I will take it tomorrow night.
Now I'm just cleaning my appartment, packing all my clothes, gave most of it to Humana (charity), writing some delayed e-mails, in which I will link a farewell letter. I'm not sure if I even have to say anything to these people anymore, maybe they don't even care. I don't know.
I've packed all my meds etc. for SN and booking a nice hotel room now. Have Xanax for sedation. Feeling really hungover, nervous, but also determined and kind of reliefed that I can finally have an out. It feels so calming to know that I don't have to go on longer. I feel at piece really, more than ever before.
Guys, even though I was not here for a long time, you've been awsome. This community is supportive asf. I felt understood here. Thank you for everything. I will probably be here when I'm leaving, will tell you how I feel while doing SN.
If everything goes right, I will take it tomorrow night.
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