It's so difficult

[kekcal24]

My mother's going to be destroyed by my death. My main block against CTB. It's just so cruel... brought into the world to suffer, and I can't even leave without causing suffering myself... I just don't even want to be here anymore, and living just so someone doesn't get hurt is no way to live... fuck!

 

[The Bell Jar]

I can relate to this. Hugs*

 

[Frauw]

I think it's strange that parents tend to think their children can't die before them by happenstance, eg "no parent should ever have to bury their child". They've forgotten the most important lesson of all in life, that it's unpredictable.