Venting It's rough

[ImpairedLowlife]

Recently life has been pretty shit. Even worse than usual. Lack social interactions is crazy and I can feel it affecting my mind already. I'm kind of losing sanity and any remains of my social skills. And the longer it goes, the harder it is to talk to new people, start and hold conversations etc. This is a vicious self-feeding spiral of insanity and misery and there's no end of it in the foreseeable, or for that matter, any future.
I wish I had somebody to talk to, hang out with etc. But list of my friends has only been declining with years and it's at its lowest point now. I'm getting used to it, but it's not entirely pleasant thing too. Feels like a forced adaptation rather than something I wanted to learn.

Also this night another person I knew toon their life with SN. It was successful and peaceful. I'm happy they found their peace, but it doesn't it make any less easy to lose another person who was really nice to you and whom you really enjoyed talking to. Kind of makes me want to take my SN as well. The fear of death seem to be slowly declining and desire to end it all steadily grows stronger

 

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If you gotta talk hit me up

 

[Cosmophobic]

I survive on social crumbs myself and I foresee complete loneliness in my future. I'm mostly useless but if you ever need someone to talk to I will at least listen read and reply.