Venting It's my Birthday.

[Extra Expression]

It's my birthday today.
I feel really sad, lonely, and miserable.
My birthday has always been really important to me, since it's the only day where I feel somewhat important and cared for.
But at some point of my life, every birthday just feels worse and worse.
Year by year, I start to slowly realize how lonely and unimportant I am.
Like I'm a ghost.
No one cares about me. No friends and not even my own parents care.
In all my years of living, today gotta be the worst birthday I've ever had.
Just been spending the few hours just in my room and crying haha.
I really wanna kill myself.

 

[bluesoapyskies]

i'm so sorry. i understand how you feel. birthdays have always been hard for me. if it means anything... happy birthday! i hope this year holds good things in store for you.

 

[thrashisland]

Happy birthday!!

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Well, for what it's worth, Happy Birthday to you. I know that a birthday wish from some anonymous stranger on the Internet isn't what you want, or need, but it's nice that you're spending it with us. I've had a lot more birthdays than you and, tbh, at this point, I don't even care about them anymore, as they've just lost their meaning. I don't have anyone who cares about my birthdays, either, probably not for the same reasons you do, but simply because I have no one in my life at all. After a while you just become numb to it all. I wish your birthday was more of a special day for you, just about you, the way it should be for everyone. Maybe you can figure things out going forward and future birthdays will regain their importance for you.

 

[irie]

i'm so sorry you have to feel this way on your birthday of all days, it was the same for me and it just feels terrible. happy birthday though, really hope your day gets better

 

[FindingHome]

Happy Birthday! I hope life gets better for you!

 

[Deathisbetter]

It's my birthday today.
I feel really sad, lonely, and miserable.
My birthday has always been really important to me, since it's the only day where I feel somewhat important and cared for.
But at some point of my life, every birthday just feels worse and worse.
Year by year, I start to slowly realize how lonely and unimportant I am.
Like I'm a ghost.
No one cares about me. No friends and not even my own parents care.
In all my years of living, today gotta be the worst birthday I've ever had.
Just been spending the few hours just in my room and crying haha.
I really wanna kill myself.

I know how you feel same thing happened to me sending you love you deserve a nice birthday happy birthday

 

[tora]

happy birthday

 

[Unknown21]

Happy birthday buddy

 

[suicidesheep31.1]

I also don't like when this is my birthday.
I feel empty and alone.
But it helps when someone drops me a message.
So, Happy birthday! This is your day and you deserve a treat.
Either taking a warm shower with a lotion you like, or eating something you like, or just lighting a candle and taking care of yourself.

 

[𖣂𖣂𖣂.]

It's my birthday today.
I feel really sad, lonely, and miserable.
My birthday has always been really important to me, since it's the only day where I feel somewhat important and cared for.
But at some point of my life, every birthday just feels worse and worse.
Year by year, I start to slowly realize how lonely and unimportant I am.
Like I'm a ghost.
No one cares about me. No friends and not even my own parents care.
In all my years of living, today gotta be the worst birthday I've ever had.
Just been spending the few hours just in my room and crying haha.
I really wanna kill myself.

Happy b day

 

[venin]

It's my birthday today.
I feel really sad, lonely, and miserable.
My birthday has always been really important to me, since it's the only day where I feel somewhat important and cared for.
But at some point of my life, every birthday just feels worse and worse.
Year by year, I start to slowly realize how lonely and unimportant I am.
Like I'm a ghost.
No one cares about me. No friends and not even my own parents care.
In all my years of living, today gotta be the worst birthday I've ever had.
Just been spending the few hours just in my room and crying haha.
I really wanna kill myself.

I know how you feel. Birthdays can be the worst when they're like this

 

[feder]

Happy birthday, everyone deserves to hear that, including you.

 

[dialogos]

Happy Birthday!

 

[Daft-Bear]

Happy birthday. I'm always a moment away if you need someone to talk to. Being alone can be unbearable, but talking, even to a stranger, often makes me feel less alone. I hope you feel a bit better tomorrow.

 

[Starry✧･ﾟDaze]

I don't know you, dear stranger but I'll light a birthday candle for you. It smells really good :)

Think of something that has a nice scent, maybe you can even sense it for a second?
It's not much that I can offer you, but I'd love to bake and send you a little cake if I could.

Happy birthday ♡

 

[deomlez]

We care here... happy birthday, you are not alone.

 

[ZoloftSüchtig]

Happy birthday !!!

 

[Praestat_Mori]

It's my birthday today.
I feel really sad, lonely, and miserable.
My birthday has always been really important to me, since it's the only day where I feel somewhat important and cared for.
But at some point of my life, every birthday just feels worse and worse.
Year by year, I start to slowly realize how lonely and unimportant I am.
Like I'm a ghost.
No one cares about me. No friends and not even my own parents care.
In all my years of living, today gotta be the worst birthday I've ever had.
Just been spending the few hours just in my room and crying haha.
I really wanna kill myself.

Happy Birthday!!! It should be a great day each year but reality is often so different. Anyway I light a birthday candle for you!!

I can relate to this a bit. Since several years I hate my birthday,there's nothing to celebrate but a big failure that's not worth it and I hate the few people sending birthday wishes, although they are loved ones. I wish so much and hope I'm not there on my next one.

 

[EndJstifiesTheMeans]

Happy birthday !!! This year during my birthday i was alone so i know how sad can be, wish you the best

 

[fedupwithlife]

Happy fucking birthday

 

[Sad Avocado]

We care about you here :) happy birthdayy hope it really gets better

 

[KarmicRain]

Same, really. it used to be something i looked forward to. spending time with my family and celebrating, but one day I just stopped enjoying it. I couldn't enjoy it anymore. felt more like a pain of going through the motions of "celebrating."
It really started one time when my parents just didn't celebrate it at all since our financial situation was rough and they were really busy. I was really angry but kept thinking to myself it'd be fine until I eventually stopped caring. funny how that became permanent.
just the things you used to think were special stop having meaning with time; I think that's just part of "growing up." either that or depression, but i see a lot of other adults online who agree their birthday's just another day.
i miss when things were better.
funny how "maturing" involves letting go of things you once liked or wanted but in turn loses your ability to reach out for them at all.
maybe that's just depression

 

[nessun_nome]

It's my birthday today.
I feel really sad, lonely, and miserable.
My birthday has always been really important to me, since it's the only day where I feel somewhat important and cared for.
But at some point of my life, every birthday just feels worse and worse.
Year by year, I start to slowly realize how lonely and unimportant I am.
Like I'm a ghost.
No one cares about me. No friends and not even my own parents care.
In all my years of living, today gotta be the worst birthday I've ever had.
Just been spending the few hours just in my room and crying haha.
I really wanna kill myself.

I used to spend birthdays crying so I understand how you fee.

I send you positive birthday wishes. You deserve to be happy and safe.

I have had some good birthdays in with the bad ones.

 

[アホペンギン]

Birthdays have been really hard for me too. I hope after today life will be a little better for you. I don't know if this is untoward, but, happy birthday. I send you my best regards, I hope you can somewhat enjoy today.

 

[jazzcat]

I'm sorry, you deserve to feel special and cared for today, I hope next year is better if you're still around, I think making new friends that care is very hard but not impossible
I'm sending you a hug and my best wishes, happy birthday! just take it easy today

 

[FeyB]

Happy Birthday! Birthday is always hard as it brings the idea of trying to find meaning in what we are experiencing in life, at the end of the day though it's just one day within a myriad of seconds, hours, days, months...

I really hate the thoughts that comes with certain holidays especially because we get imposed the idea of how the holiday should be. It isn't, but it must not be like that. I know in the first place that even if I wasn't lonely, I would feel like that.
Try not to think of those who don't care about you they have no space inside your head and pass your birthday doin what you like the most
<3

 

[FuneralCry]

To me it's really understandable just wishing to be free from all the suffering as I get that existing here certainly can be so dreadful, it's awful how existing can very easily get worse and I know that loneliness is painful for many. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[Nlis2244]

I understand very well how you feel. Happy birthday!

 

[Kerrtu]

When I was growing up, my mother was a Jehovah's Witness; no birthdays, no holidays, etc. Every year when elementary school started, she'd make a point to tell my teachers I was not allowed to be in attendance for any class parties (birthday parties, holiday parties). I spent many a time sitting in the school hallway, waiting for the parties to end so I could be back in class.

My birthday became a nothing day - I felt no positive connection with it. It wasn't until I was in my 20's that I learned my birthday was the same day my paternal grandfather died.

Anyhow, I've had this candle for so long and now I light it for you -



Happy birthday to you - I wish you peace ♡