Venting It's my birthday...

[ready to go....]

Well, another birthday has arrived, and yep, I'm spending it on my own as per usual. Not one single 'friend' or family member has reached out to plan anything to celebrate with me. I've had no cards, no messages, not even a Facebook post. I should be used to this by now but fucking hell, no effort from anyone, it fucking hurts. Yet, when it's friends and families birthdays, I'm always the first to reach out, or first one to plan something.
I wonder how many people will pretend to care once I do have the balls to ctb. My head is telling me to do it today. Something about ctb on your birthday seems right to me, leaving this shit hole that we called earth, on the day we were brought into it seems quite fitting. As I have everything ready for my method, as the day goes on, it quite possibly could be tonight. It's 2pm and I've already cried 4 times today. Today has really proven to me that no one cares. After 3 failed attempts, I'm fucking determined this time, nothing can fail.
Sorry for the vent, I'm overly emotional today. Birthdays are hard for me, but this year really has hit home how lonely I am, and how no one cares.
oh, and here's another kicker, I still live with my mum, and guess what, instead of spending the day with me, or even asking me if I'd like to do something, she's gone to see my brother, who is a piece of shit and one of the reasons I fucking hate my life so much.
Anyway, happy fucking birthday to me I guess?

 

[Someone123]

Happy birthdaqy. :) I hope you can find some way to lesen your pain today. Do you friends know your birthday is today? I have to admit I can barely keep track of family birthdays and I don't know friend's birthdays oftentimes. Maybe you could reach out to a friend and let them know, maybe they would try to make it less lonely.

 

[ready to go....]

Happy birthdaqy. :) I hope you can find some way to lesen your pain today. Do you friends know your birthday is today? I have to admit I can barely keep track of family birthdays and I don't know friend's birthdays oftentimes. Maybe you could reach out to a friend and let them know, maybe they would try to make it less lonely.

Thank you!
Yes, friends are aware. I posted on my Instagram story, 78 people, including close friends, viewed it, yet not one single message. It sounds awful but I'm exhausted of always having to make the first effort with so called friends. I always put so much time and effort into birthdays of friends and family, yet get nothing in return, it's really exhausting..

 

[Darkover]

birthday are just one year closer to death i never understood why we celebrate them

 

[LoiteringClouds]

Hello @Ready to go...,
First and foremost, happy birthday!
I'm so sorry to hear that your friends don't care about it despite the fact that you care about their birthday and celebrate it. I can't believe it
I can't change their behaviour as I don't have a superpower, so I'll say what I can.
Know that April 8 is an important day for us. I'm just a stranger on the internet but I send you virtual hug
Happy birthday again!

You were born on April eighth
So I believe despite difficulties you can retain your faith.

 

[SoftWorries]

Happy birthday! Mothers can be so cruel. My mom bought a rum cake for my 13th birthday because she didn't want me to eat too much. I was glad when I went no contact with her and my father about three years ago.

I can't even describe the relief. I'd be gone by now if I was still dealing with them.

 

[FuneralCry]

In this world humans certainly can be so incredibly cruel and insensitive, it's really true that most of them don't care about others. You really cannot trust and rely on people in this world. But anyway to me there could never be anything happy about birthdays, I always hate the fact that I managed to exist for yet another year.

 

[wastingpotential]

hello! happy birthday.

i understand how painful it can be to spend your birthday on your own and not receive a single message, whether you know people remember your birthday or not. it's draining. i had a similar experience with my birthday this year and i still haven't recovered from how much it destroyed me.

but know that your worth doesn't stem from who wishes you a happy birthday. screw the people who know and didn't wish you.
i know we are very much strangers, but i'm glad i found your thread and got to wish you, and i hope the rest of your day passes by as tranquil as it can be.

hugs!

 

[Storyteller]

Happy Birthday! I wouldn't even want to be congratulated by someone I despise, so hope you don't mind if strangers cheer you on. It's better to be at peace with yourself than to think about someone who doesn't care about you, whether they are close to you or not.

 

[Shinobu]

Happy birthday as shitty as it is its still your birthday might as well enjoy yourself and if CTB is your perfered way of enjoying yourself by all means good luck!

 

[FacePALM]

Happy birthday mate. I don't really now what to say besides that you have very shitty people in your life. I am sorry they didn't sent you even a message. I hope knowing that here we do care helps. Wishing you the best!

 

[canyouseeme]

Happy birthday. Your birthday is 1 week from mine. I guess I dont care for them either its nothing significant just a number change. You arent physically much different the day before it or the day after.

 

[Unattainable666]

Well, another birthday has arrived, and yep, I'm spending it on my own as per usual. Not one single 'friend' or family member has reached out to plan anything to celebrate with me. I've had no cards, no messages, not even a Facebook post. I should be used to this by now but fucking hell, no effort from anyone, it fucking hurts. Yet, when it's friends and families birthdays, I'm always the first to reach out, or first one to plan something.
I wonder how many people will pretend to care once I do have the balls to ctb. My head is telling me to do it today. Something about ctb on your birthday seems right to me, leaving this shit hole that we called earth, on the day we were brought into it seems quite fitting. As I have everything ready for my method, as the day goes on, it quite possibly could be tonight. It's 2pm and I've already cried 4 times today. Today has really proven to me that no one cares. After 3 failed attempts, I'm fucking determined this time, nothing can fail.
Sorry for the vent, I'm overly emotional today. Birthdays are hard for me, but this year really has hit home how lonely I am, and how no one cares.
oh, and here's another kicker, I still live with my mum, and guess what, instead of spending the day with me, or even asking me if I'd like to do something, she's gone to see my brother, who is a piece of shit and one of the reasons I fucking hate my life so much.
Anyway, happy fucking birthday to me I guess?

Wishing you a happy birthday filled ith peace. Do something special for yourself.

 

[Gonnerr]

Happy birthday!

 

[blackwidow92]

Happy birthday

 

[man_in_red:)]

Happy fucking birthday mate!

 

[heLLishLandscape]

happy birthday!!! treat yourself! doordash something special! get some ice cream! online shop! i know birthdays can be hard, so you have my support (:

 

[ready to go....]

Thanks for your kind words everyone. I decided to sleep for a few hours to block out the day, which seemed to help with the reality of loneliness, but then again, waking up to no messages from friends again made me fucking miserable. Thank you for the birthday wishes. We may be strangers on the Internet, but I do appreciate it!

 

[Challu]

Happy Birthday

 

[Dead Meat]

Happy Birthday @ready to go.... you Beautiful Soul

 

[Covalite]

Happy birth day. I just had a birth day alone on the 6th so i can relate.

 

[Someone123]

I wish I could be there to help you have a happy birthday, and a bunch of other people here wish they could as well, I'm sure. I wish you luck somehow- even if you have to make the first move to get some company it may be worth it. I hope you can alleviate this pain somehow.