Venting It's hard not to hate myself.

[ILiveAlone]

Let's say you're ugly. Ultimately, there's nothing wrong with being ugly. It doesn't/shouldn't affect your mental/physical health because it's just your face. However, people will treat you differently, if not terribly, for being ugly.
A lot of the issues people have with me are not my fault (in relation to attractiveness, gender, race, etc.); but I can't help, but hate myself for it.

I said I'd start a diet at the beginning of the new year. But ever since the start of the new year, I've been stuffing my face with food to distract myself from my emotions. The only goal I've stuck to is drinking nothing, but water, so I guess that counts for something, right?

I want to be better. I'm pretty sure I will be better. I'm just so sad. I can barely shower on a consistent basis.

 

[lollipoppi]

Hey I was just about to post about this very issue, specifically obsessing over food so I don't think about the pain in my life. I'm already ugly and then I'll hate myself for not taking care of my body.

What I can tell you is that I don't have to see you to know you're not ugly. Maybe you don't adhere so much to beauty canons imposed by society and there's nothing wrong that. I know very well how awful it feels to be rejected for things you can't change like your appearance but do you really want to be friends/partners who are so stupidly judgemental? They're almost doing a favour to us by removing themselves from our lives, it's trash taking itself out. Unfortunately people like this are the majority around us, I hope we can be lucky and find people who really care about important things and won't make us feel bad about irrelevant stuff like how are faced and body look.

So please don't hurt yourself by denying yourself food, it won't make people shut up or care about you suddenly. As a person who can relate and that suffers deeply because of it, in the end I still do what's best for me. I may be ugly and have big thighs and the opposite of a flat stomach but I care more about my heart. We know we are better than those who judge us and that's what matters at the end of the day.
Big hugs

 

[menthol]

Hope is half the success