Venting It’s going in circles

[revolutionnaire23]

Does anyone else feel like this? Feeling good one day and wanting to die in the same day? I feel like I'm trapped in this never ending cycle…it hurts…

 

[Doz]

You mean like mood swings? I feel that all the time. It's actually unbearable to live with.

 

[revolutionnaire23]

You mean like mood swings? I feel that all the time. It's actually unbearable to live with.

Yeah, for sure. It's so frustrating. They're, in my case, so erratic too. I think it's probably from my possible BPD.

 

[ripberman]

Yeah, for sure. It's so frustrating. They're, in my case, so erratic too. I think it's probably from my possible BPD.

Mood swings from BPD are extremely erratic, and will have you totally fine one day and incredibly suicidal the next. I wish you luck in navigating this illness, if it is in fact what you're suffering from.

I have learned some coping mechanisms that help keep the emotional roller coaster in check, but unfortunately they are simply coping mechanisms at the end of the day.

 

[edu0z]

Does anyone else feel like this? Feeling good one day and wanting to die in the same day? I feel like I'm trapped in this never ending cycle…it hurts…

In just a quarter of an hour I can find the purpose of my life, see a bright future, be the happiest and most motivated person in the world... for ten minutes later to realize that all of that is for nothing, begin to feel sad and anguished, planning my suicide, setting a date for CTB with great determination... a couple of hours later I am again the happiest person in the world, finding my purpose... etc... Several times a day, practically every day days.

It's the worst thing in the world, you can't work on anything consistently and making decisions becomes hell.