I don't have the answer why God let us to suffer in this planet, but...
something happened to me last year that changed me from the core, some people call it spiritual awakening and about a month thereafter I had a kundalini awakening, both came in spontaneous, both very powerful experiences not induced by drugs, alcohol or meditation/yoga just a plain vainilla overworked father/husband, born christian but no church or religious practice I guess I sympathized more with Buddhism when grew older but never practiced that either, 50 years old well lived with old sorts of happy and painful experiences, proud dad, hard worker early bird, 28 years of faithful and loving marriage that ended catastrophically shortly after those spiritual awakenings happened that produced profound changes.
God is real, nothing in this universe would convince me otherwise, there are no words to explain it, but if you have to ask me, the way I felt him was more energetically/emotionally/telepathically than in a spirit manifested in some form, this energy flows constantly to everything that exist, you, me, dogs, rocks, air, water just everything and equally to all, the amount of love, compassion and forgiveness is unfathomable, can't be described in any way or form, it humbles you because that God is you (in a much smaller fractional part) and everything that exist, like a collective energy field with consciousness.
Some people who has gone through NDA describes the experience in a similar way, the difference is that I went through it while being alive and sometimes in very profound states of awareness with the eyes opened, no hallucinations but close to higher states of consciousness where time stopped or slowed considerably, a regular person 24 hours day transmuted into a complete lunar cycle, with very high emotional states at new and full moon completing what it felt to me as a regular 24 hours day, a leaf moving in the wind had a language and left a message behind, numbers had logical patterns, colors had a language, movement of people on the street had a perfect coordination and dynamic like music notes, never tried hard drugs but I have read several users telling about experiences of higher consciousness states were the time slowed down and objects appeared to be animated, alive and communicating with everything and connected to all there is, I guess some users of hard drugs can related to that as well.
This is only my experience and opinion but it appears that this planet is ground zero for souls to learn very basic lessons, kind of a pre-pre-pre-pre-kindergarten, very dense and with no rules of engagement. Don't know much about the deal, but certainly Love, its acknowledgment and practice is one of the main lessons, if not the only one to be learnt, by Love I mean the highest form which is named unconditional Love but any kind of Love is still Love. All rest seems irrelevant.
Judgement...contrary to what I understood from certain teachings in some books, I felt no God judging me, it was me feeling what I have done to others while in their own shoes. The pain was considerable, I stoped crying when I was 16 after my mother died until my awakenings happened 34 years later, the pain I have inflicted to others broke me into tears that just couldn't stop for months. There were periods of so called illumination, were I could stand looking at a tree for a very long time and cry of the beauty of it. Not all was bad, it was mix of judgement and a higher state of happiness but mostly peace.
The whole movie played inside me since I was born until present days, I could remember, feel, hear and taste while being in the womb, it did not stopped there I also had flashes of past lives, we all appear to be not that young, we seem to be very ancient souls which slowly growth our consciousness into higher states, each at their own pace but always forward, some more dark, others more into the light, but always somehow towards the light, no-matter how dark some souls appears to be it's still moving forward into the light. Get ready, the voyage of the Soul is a long one probably lasting for the infinite, I don't reject the idea that at some point we have learned and grow that much that entire universes will be created, managed and cared by each one of us, when we become a very large loving entity, by then I hope to have a better understanding why suffering is allowed, my limited understanding sympathize with the idea that God should not allow so much suffering and harm being done.
In my personal experience I felt that I graduated, that I would not have to be here anymore, don't ask me how I just got that message, I was done and this is my last life here.
Death is a lie, the being you are now continues to exist but in another place, a much higher one than this one, a place of rest and peace where greater understanding and many answers will be freed from our current limited and contained body/brain system. You'll be surrounded with Love, understanding and compassion, perhaps some little ear pulling as without any doubts every though, word spoken or action reverberates in the whole universe and affects everything in it, there are consequences for our acts, I don't believe that self deliberation will be seen as an act of great crime or punished, hard to believe from the God I felt that the person that is in great pain and takes a decision to stop their life is greeted by a reddish big bully which a huge fork in his arm, I believe you'll be rather get the peace, understanding and forgiveness you need so your voyage can continue. A very limited amount of NDA's I saw talk about experiences in Hell but again these same person explained that right after they seek for help, being to a God, your deceased mother, dog, pet lizard whatever you have in a high level of Love will come to your rescue from that scary hole like a lighting bolt and grab your hand to take you to heaven, I think this is true and will keep this trick under my sleeve just in case...
My present state is very sad, painful and suffering goes to never experienced levels, right after my awakenings everyone I knew and loved to death started to reject and isolate me, wife forced me to have psychiatric treatment under the disguise that I went crazy, daughters, brother, sisters in law friends all gone, the worst of humanity projected in them (ego, lust, lies and hate) wife started lying and cheating with someone I trusted, my only treasure in life, my family union is gone, everything I held for a blessing in this rough world gone.
I tried the exit bag once but failed, it was the day my ex-wife took my son to sleep with the new partner for the first time, I could no stand the pain of a once united family now separated.
I still love her I don't hold hate, only thing left in me is great pain never felt before, I don't perform like before, I can't concretrate more than an hour on the work, spent long times in bed watching and reading alone, most of the nights I get vivid visions of past times were I was enjoying time with my wife until to wake up in tears and sorrow, this happens several times every night simple horrible, going throng almost a year now and nothing has changed for the better rather it gets worse and worse with health both mentally and physically starting to get compromised.
I do want to go and I'll be successful in my efforts, but I'm for now holding just a bit as I'm teaching my 14 year old son to shoot, ride a bike, some basic driving lessons on an empty dirt road, designing and talking to him about leaving him some money to build/buy a Sprinter converted Van so he can travel and find himself before starting life, some last time advices etc. He is curiously the only one that completely understand me, he is aware of my intentions, he sees me cry all day long and wants to see me happy, I don't think I'll ever find happiness again as I already had the most precious thing in life which is a loving family. I'm done, I need a well deserved rest in heaven and Yes I do believe that God exists, no doubts about that, be surprised I believe he takes anyone in his Love and forgiveness no matter who you are or what you have done.