It's getting real

[HopingOnaMiracle]

My depression has been worsening by the day. More and more I becoming accustomed to the idea that I will CTB. There's almost nothing else going through my mind.

Weirdly enough the thought of me dying is soothing to me. I imagine myself doing it and it makes me feel at peace.

The pain of this hellish life has grown so big I see death as the only way out. My life has been nothing but suffering for 2 years.

Right now I suffer all day. Nothing helps (trust me I tried everything) and nothing can distract me. I spend half of my day on SS.

Its getting real.
All I need is my meto to arrive and I have everything

Just wanted to get this off my chest


Ama I guess

 

[CravingPeace]

I agree with this wholeheartedly, I feel the same. I am becoming obsessed with CTB and I like it. It's worrying. Lol

 

[Thomas Rekowicz]

I also start spending more and more time on SS. Feeling of emptiness is horryfing but CTB will give me peace. I have my beta blockers it was not easy to get now only need SN and something that sedate me. I am so tired i know how you feel.