Venting It's funny, really.

[BoredomSeeker]

It's really funny. Genuinely hilarious. I'm given everything, fucking everything. Never struggled academically, my parents are decent people, financially I'm okay, I have friends I don't deserve.

And still I wake up in the morning wishing that I hadn't, still cry myself to sleep at night. Anxious and scared of the smallest fucking things that everyone else does so easily.

It's pathetic. If there's a god up there, he's laughing at me. And he should be. Because it really is funny.

 

[UnrulyNightmare]

I don't find it funny, I'm just sorry you feel the way you do, no matter the circumstances

 

[Dingusguy]

The feelings of anxeity, fear and depression is something anyone can feel for any reason. Something that may be simple or nonproblematic to others can be a herculean task to someone else.

There isn't a rule for when you are allowed to feel all of these feelings, if you feel them it is not pathetic and you are not pathetic. I feel genuinly sorry for what you're going through and I hope my words help you just a little

 

[Saponification]

It's really funny. Genuinely hilarious. I'm given everything, fucking everything. Never struggled academically, my parents are decent people, financially I'm okay, I have friends I don't deserve.

And still I wake up in the morning wishing that I hadn't, still cry myself to sleep at night. Anxious and scared of the smallest fucking things that everyone else does so easily.

It's pathetic. If there's a god up there, he's laughing at me. And he should be. Because it really is funny.

Hope you don't find this out of line since I don't know you, but there's always an underlying reason behind pain. You might feel like you don't deserve to allow yourself to feel like this because of the things you have, and because you're not able to identify the source of the pain. But there's always something going on. And everyone has a different level of tolerance to suffering.

Again, I hope you don't find this inappropiate considering the fact that I don't know you at all, but the way you imagine a divine entitity mocking you reminds me of me. And the way you guilt trip yourself is how most people feel when they start having depression.

 

[Pale_Rider]

I've been made to suffer at every turn, and that's not much of a consolation if that helps.