It's been nearly 6 months since I lost my job, my whole reason for being

[Usako0504]

In the beginning of November last year I lost my job that I had worked nearly 7 years for to get into, and ever since then I've not been able to get another one. This was supposed to be the one thing I was good at since I've had about 18 jobs and none of them worked out and I ended up fucking up my relationship because I moved for my job and my partner was unwilling to move with me. I lost everything in my life and I feel less than useless. I know speaking with my career mentors that I just ended up at a bad company, and it shows because they've had multiple rounds of layoffs in the past 2 years but I'm running out of unemployment in a week and I've been ghosted by over 15 recruiters, then I started applying to office jobs and I've had over 10 interviews in the past 3 weeks and I still don't have a job.


I've even been on 2nd and 3rd round interviews before getting rejected so I don't even know what to do anymore.

I don't have a good family or anything I can really fall back on and I have my life. I hate being alive. I don't feel useful and I've worked so hard and sacrificed so much and I feel like it was for nothing. I've been soul searching for months and I don't have an answer on what to do next. I'm so tired, and everyday I find myself debating ctb. I do everything I'm supposed to, I go to therapy, I journal, I go to the gym but it's getting harder and harder to believe that things are going to get better. I've tried so many meds and therapies over the past decade and it's like barely anything has helped.

I just want to be normal and be good at something but that feels nearly impossible because my brain doesn't work right and I don't have any energy anymore. I'm really burnt out.

I want to ctb and be done with this.

 

[stoopid]

How about migrate into EU economy if this whole job situation fks with your mind. It's fairly easy to get a safe job even if the salary is not that high, we have a more or less working social welfare system that you could take a off time if you need, if you wanna concentrate on your healing.

Just my thoughts.

We're here to support you in any way we can, if this is completely off the table, then fine, take an exit is your right and totally okay I can relate to your story in some way, I spend years working with my hands without accomplishments, now I'm not that young, more or less alone and isolated its literally hell so silent it becomes noisy

 

[missingpeace]

Are you able to take a break? Even go for a trip somewhere? If you feel your exhausted in the city you live, would you consider moving to a different place? Maybe a change of environment will help?

 

[FuneralCry]

That does sound like a really tiring situation to be in. The unfortunate reality is that life is something that is so disappointing and there could never be anything fair about existing here in this cruel world. But anyway, I wish you the best.

 

[Usako0504]

How about migrate into EU economy if this whole job situation fks with your mind. It's fairly easy to get a safe job even if the salary is not that high, we have a more or less working social welfare system that you could take a off time if you need, if you wanna concentrate on your healing.

Just my thoughts.

We're here to support you in any way we can, if this is completely off the table, then fine, take an exit is your right and totally okay I can relate to your story in some way, I spend years working with my hands without accomplishments, now I'm not that young, more or less alone and isolated its literally hell so silent it becomes noisy

I want to, but as an American without a bachelors degree it's really hard. The visa process without sponsorship is thousands of dollars and takes a couple of years. I've actually been considering it for years, as well as Canada.

Are you able to take a break? Even go for a trip somewhere? If you feel your exhausted in the city you live, would you consider moving to a different place? Maybe a change of environment will help?

I've moved once every year to different states as an adult since I was about 21, it unfortunately hasn't helped much.