It's Almost Time

[NoOneLovesMiMi]

The first thing to arrive was the antifreeze.
I took that as a good sign.
It came neatly well packed too so that was a good sign to me.

I got notification the other stuff maybe delayed and I thought if I have to I'll push my Attempt day to Friday.
But it may come today so that made me happy.

Ever since I've been home I've lost track of time...I'm only sleeping a couple hours here and there so I feel very frazzled.

I know me and I'm a procrastinator but I know I can't with this.
I have to be extremely careful and strategic since my attempt will be around the holidays so I'm overthinking every step.

I decided to order some food and hopefully everything will be here by the evening so I can start packing up stuff.

It's a odd feeling knowing that I'm preparing for my death.
But reading other posts here and knowing my situation I feel good about it and just praying this works.

Praying I don't have to endure too much physical pain as I feel I've suffered enough.

I'll take today as a good day that everything so far is coming along.
Till next time

 

[AtomicWaffles]

Super jealous , i'm waiting on my supply but I am so happy for you I truly hope you find the peace you're looking for and it seems it's going along very well for you!

 

[NoOneLovesMiMi]

Super jealous , i'm waiting on my supply but I am so happy for you I truly hope you find the peace you're looking for and it seems it's going along very well for you!

Thanks
And just as I finished my post
Everything else came
So now it's preparing time

 

[AtomicWaffles]

Thanks
And just as I finished my post
Everything else came
So now it's preparing time

Good luck!!

 

[NoOneLovesMiMi]

Good luck!!

Thankyou so much
Best wishes to you too

 

[DoubleUp8]

Is antifreeze really a good way? Doesn't it take a long time to kill you. I see many stories on tv true crime shows where people have tried to kill people by putting antifreeze in their food/drinks and the victim is sick for weeks and sometimes does not even die. This is after the perpetrator (usually a spouse) has been spiking their food with antifreeze every day for weeks.

 

[NoOneLovesMiMi]

Is antifreeze really a good way? Doesn't it take a long time to kill you. I see many stories on tv true crime shows where people have tried to kill people by putting antifreeze in their food/drinks and the victim is sick for weeks and sometimes does not even die. This is after the perpetrator (usually a spouse) has been spiking their food with antifreeze every day for weeks.

Probably not
But I've read a lot of fails here too
So I'll take my chances
3 days is the usual
I'll be barricaded in my apartment
I've bought trash cans to keep near by if I vomit
My research shows without treatment you will die
If a football player who's bigger than me can do it
I can do it
I rather try then go on like this
I'll even accept being brain dead
But I ain't staying here and I'm gonna keep saying it's gonna work

 

[DoubleUp8]

Probably not
But I've read a lot of fails here too
So I'll take my chances
3 days is the usual
I'll be barricaded in my apartment
I've bought trash cans to keep near by if I vomit
My research shows without treatment you will die
If a football player who's bigger than me can do it
I can do it
I rather try then go on like this
I'll even accept being brain dead
But I ain't staying here and I'm gonna keep saying it's gonna work

I wish you success but worried it's prolonged suffering. I hope not too long or too bad. And if it doesn't work you could become irreversibly ill. I will pray for you

 

[NoOneLovesMiMi]

I wish you success but worried it's prolonged suffering. I hope not too long or too bad. And if it doesn't work you could become irreversibly ill. I will pray for you

I appreciate that very much
Thankyou

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I don't think that antifreeze is a good choice. Maybe you should reconsider your method. Anyway I wish you all the best and good luck. May you find peace.

 

[NoOneLovesMiMi]

I don't think that antifreeze is a good choice. Maybe you should reconsider your method. Anyway I wish you all the best and good luck. May you find peace.

I don't think SN is the best
But this is all I got
So thanks
Just wish it to work for me

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best of luck with your plans, I hope that you find peace from all the suffering.

 

[LittleBlackCat]

I wish you peace and I hope everything goes well for you.

 

[HerculePoirot]

Terrible method. Please don't do it.

 

[Tears in Rain]

Like others have said, you should try and get another method, as tough as that can be.
This method could be painful and prolonged.
But good luck with whatever you decide.

 

[new2blue]

You deserve a peaceful death. This does not sound too peaceful. We all wish you luck. I wish the governments of the world stopped placing barriers in every direction, leaving only the most painful and undignified options on the table. I hope you find the peace you deserve.

 

[NoOneLovesMiMi]

You deserve a peaceful death. This does not sound too peaceful. We all wish you luck. I wish the governments of the world stopped placing barriers in every direction, leaving only the most painful and undignified options on the table. I hope you find the peace you deserve.

Thankyou

 

[CheekyPhobia]

Probably not
But I've read a lot of fails here too
So I'll take my chances
3 days is the usual
I'll be barricaded in my apartment
I've bought trash cans to keep near by if I vomit
My research shows without treatment you will die
If a football player who's bigger than me can do it
I can do it
I rather try then go on like this
I'll even accept being brain dead
But I ain't staying here and I'm gonna keep saying it's gonna work

It sounds unpleasant but if you're settled on it then I wish you luck and a peaceful passing.

 

[almaPerdida]

Good luck, i hope you find peace.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Wishing you the best. You seem ok with your method. I'm not going to try to talk you out of it.
I hope you can pass as smoothly as possible.
May you find peace from this horrible world.

 

[Sleeper System]

What exactly is your method? Just drinking anti-freeze?
I hope not. This is super painful and prolonged ending.
72 hours is the longest someone has been alive and in extreme pain before dying. It take long for your body to break down the chemicals into toxins.

 

[NoOneLovesMiMi]

Wishing you the best. You seem ok with your method. I'm not going to try to talk you out of it.
I hope you can pass as smoothly as possible.
May you find peace from this horrible world.

Thankyou

What exactly is your method? Just drinking anti-freeze?
I hope not. This is super painful and prolonged ending.
72 hours is the longest someone has been alive and in extreme pain before dying. It take long for your body to break down the chemicals into toxins.

That's exactly my method
I've done the research
I have no choice

 

[Sleeper System]

Thankyou

That's exactly my method
I've done the research
I have no choice

I'm scared for you.
It's fucked up that you have to go like this.
There has to be a faster way available.

 

[NoOneLovesMiMi]

I'm scared for you.
It's fucked up that you have to go like this.
There has to be a faster way available.

If you can find one
Please do tell
But until then
I'll hold off till Friday
But this has been the plan
Even if it gets unbearable
And I go to the ER
They won't know what's wrong with me
It's undetectable
So guess we'll see
Pray for me
I've been crying all evening

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

If you can find one
Please do tell
But until then
I'll hold off till Friday
But this has been the plan
Even if it gets unbearable
And I go to the ER
They won't know what's wrong with me
It's undetectable
So guess we'll see
Pray for me
I've been crying all evening

 

[SMmetalhead36]

Wishing you a peaceful departure from this miserable place.