UselessBeing
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- Sep 3, 2021
- 42
There have been so many times in my life that I try to convince myself that everything will turn out okay with enough work put in. Life will end up being happy. But every time I try life constantly proves me wrong. There is honestly no point trying. So much has gone on in my life. Child abuse,sexual assault ontop of a lot of other shitty things. I've taken life into my own hands and have done the work. I got help got a good education but it wasn't enough for anyone. Or even me. The more I've done the more I've realized how my life is proven to be useless. I'm so tired of waking up every day. I'm tired of cleaning the house and being alone.
I can't keep my husbands attention and we haven't even been married that long. I've dressed up, put on make up boughten all sorts of new clothes ect but he won't touch me. He only has sex with me long enough to fuffill what he needs and thats every once in a while if I'm lucky he will actually last more than 3 minutes to care about my pleasure but again that's rare... Wonder whose doing it for him now. Not that I even want to know tbh. But it's obviously not me and he doesn't care for it to. And the bugs me more than it should.
I've honestly started preparations to finally ctb. I'm sick of pussying out when I know it's what's best for me.
I can't keep my husbands attention and we haven't even been married that long. I've dressed up, put on make up boughten all sorts of new clothes ect but he won't touch me. He only has sex with me long enough to fuffill what he needs and thats every once in a while if I'm lucky he will actually last more than 3 minutes to care about my pleasure but again that's rare... Wonder whose doing it for him now. Not that I even want to know tbh. But it's obviously not me and he doesn't care for it to. And the bugs me more than it should.
I've honestly started preparations to finally ctb. I'm sick of pussying out when I know it's what's best for me.