Rounded Apathy
Longing to return to stardust
- Aug 8, 2022
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This is honestly the case most days, but I only have the discreet thought every once in a while, on the worse days.
If I went somewhere I wouldn't be found and offed myself today, no one would know anything had happened. Hell, even if I were to do it in my room, odds are pretty good my housemates wouldn't either (though I don't know how long it takes for the odour to be noticeable).
It's just a pretty fucking shitty feeling knowing that my existence as it currently is allows this to be possible. Live or die today, it doesn't even matter. No one would notice until I don't know when.
If I went somewhere I wouldn't be found and offed myself today, no one would know anything had happened. Hell, even if I were to do it in my room, odds are pretty good my housemates wouldn't either (though I don't know how long it takes for the odour to be noticeable).
It's just a pretty fucking shitty feeling knowing that my existence as it currently is allows this to be possible. Live or die today, it doesn't even matter. No one would notice until I don't know when.
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