PxB
Member
- Dec 18, 2021
- 16
I had a comfortable life. I had caring parents. I was born at the right time were we have the technology to access unlimited entertainment, books, videos, music and art. We have cool new gadgets to pass time with. We have good food. We have the ability to travel to everywhere we want. And I am wealthy enough to afford some of it like a lot of people do, but the difference between me and them is that they can enjoy it and cherish the times we live in while I can't. I'm too mentally unwell to appreciate it. I can't even listen, watch, or read something without feeling a sinister vibe in it. My interpretation of things is fucked due to the bad experiences I had with society in the past, and using the things society has created doesn't feel right because I feel like I I'm a subhuman and I'm not supposed to use it because I'm not part of society, and it's unnatural and my subconscious mind knows it.
It sucks that I will have to ctb due to society rejecting me by giving me traumatic experiences in the past and causing me to have psychosis and PTSD, even though I had a comfortable life.
Of what good use is the wisdom I have, the knowledge I have, the money I have, the things I have, and the shelter I have if I'm too mentally crippled to make use of it? Being this autistic, psychotic and mentally slow, the things that I have right now will probably be in the hands of somebody in the future if my parents died and my condition has worsened, considering how in school I was always easily manipulated into giving people stuff.
It sucks that I will have to ctb due to society rejecting me by giving me traumatic experiences in the past and causing me to have psychosis and PTSD, even though I had a comfortable life.
Of what good use is the wisdom I have, the knowledge I have, the money I have, the things I have, and the shelter I have if I'm too mentally crippled to make use of it? Being this autistic, psychotic and mentally slow, the things that I have right now will probably be in the hands of somebody in the future if my parents died and my condition has worsened, considering how in school I was always easily manipulated into giving people stuff.