it is small sharp memories out of nowhere, so clear that it feels like you are there. you could be concentrating on something else and out of nowhere you zone out to see this replay of your life. it is always very short, a matter of seconds. it is always so minor, such as being outside the supermarket padlocking each other's bikes next to one another. but because it is so vivid, because it is as though you have travelled back in time, it stabs you in the heart, it makes your stomach disintegrate, you feel sick, panicky, scared. it is the powerful strength of love.
woe-boy
Never feeling love like that anymore
- Mar 30, 2022
- 45
i deal with this constantly. when i found out my flashbacks were premonitions for the murder of my ex-boyfriend, the memories now only carry a terrible feeling. the good ones have loss connected to them, and the bad ones are nothing but regret...
for me the good and the bad have the same impact. it is the whole experience of feeling alive and being with them
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 37,160
Memories can be very painful and it is horrible how our thoughts can torture us. I think this is why I look forward to non existence as nothing can hurt us then. I'm sorry that you suffer so much. This life really is so depressing.
Memories can be people, places, things, tastes, smells, colors….
one of my oldest best friends passed away a few years back and I had some messages from him on my answering machine that I didn't erase. I saved them. I'd play the messages occasionally to hear his voice. Then one day by accident I pressed "erase all," and in one split second all of his voice was gone. It chokes me up just typing this. He's just really gone ….and I can only remember his voice in my mind.
one of my oldest best friends passed away a few years back and I had some messages from him on my answering machine that I didn't erase. I saved them. I'd play the messages occasionally to hear his voice. Then one day by accident I pressed "erase all," and in one split second all of his voice was gone. It chokes me up just typing this. He's just really gone ….and I can only remember his voice in my mind.
not-2-b-the-answer
Archangel
- Mar 23, 2018
- 8,934
For me the flashes of memories are usually the bad ones. There isn't even any relief from the good ones.
When I remember the good ones, it just makes me even more depressed cuz I know that they are never coming back.
When I remember the good ones, it just makes me even more depressed cuz I know that they are never coming back.
i can relate. i had to delete my entire camera roll because catching glimpses of them was so painful but i later realised i picture them in my head anyway so it didn't ease the pain anyway. i regret it because i would really like to look at them whilst i go out to not feel as lonely. last time i had a printed photo in my pocket when i was gonna jump off beachy head.
their voice is very vivid in my mind, i hear all their mannerisms, their cute sayings, the things that would make me laugh, the things that would comfort me.
