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Phoenix
Student
- Feb 27, 2021
- 153
Last year I made 4 suicide attempts all of which failed due to the police being called the moment I left the house and them finding me quickly.
I ordered N in the summer which was subsequently found as my room was searched as my family were suspicious by the package arriving.
Ive began planning again however today I left the house for a meeting to return to discover my room had then again been searched. Although there was nothing to be found how am I ever going to be able to plan, order/buy things when I'm on this constant suicide watch that I can't seem to escape?
I'm trying to get my own accommodation but I'm getting nowhere fast.
I feel completely trapped and forced to live.
I ordered N in the summer which was subsequently found as my room was searched as my family were suspicious by the package arriving.
Ive began planning again however today I left the house for a meeting to return to discover my room had then again been searched. Although there was nothing to be found how am I ever going to be able to plan, order/buy things when I'm on this constant suicide watch that I can't seem to escape?
I'm trying to get my own accommodation but I'm getting nowhere fast.
I feel completely trapped and forced to live.