Venting It is all my fault

[The Disqualified]

Today I felt immense grief. I finally accepted the truth society wants me to say: it is all my fault. I should've known better. It doesn't matter I had mental illness, anxiety or difference. I should've know better. I should've tried more. I should have tried harder. It is all my fault. I look at my life and I realize everything that happened will be forgotten, no one cares. The system failed me, and the blame is all on me. I should've known better. It is all my fault. I slipped through the cracks. I should've known better. I should just not have cared as much. I should just have gone with it and who cares? I should just have pushed myself out of the comfort zone and fought all I could. But I didn't. I am a loser. A failure. I am a fraud. There is no way out for me. All I feel is a profound pain.

Suicide is the only way I am getting out of this one. Suicide is the only way out for me. The only way I am getting out of this hole. Suicide is the only way out. The only way out is Suicide. I am stuck, trapped in a blind alley. Suicide is the only way I am getting out of this one.

 

[Passenger4224]

I would not put so much blame on myself like what you are describing. Some of us are unfortunately born with less capabilities than other people and it sucks so much. Wish someone could just make a cure or something

Whatever you decide, just know it is not your fault.