Venting it hurts

[willitpass]

Fuck. I've been doing so well that I should have seen this coming. But I'm crashing. I'm suicidal, truly suicidal, for the first time in months and it's taking all I have to not just do it. I don't want to be here anymore. I'm sick of falling too hard, Im sick of this fucking eating disorder, Im sick of the constant anxiety, and I'm sick of my depression always hiding behind the corner and jumping at me full force whenever life is going to well. And the worst part is I can't tell anyone. Fuck.

 

[a_french_guy]

Fuck. I've been doing so well that I should have seen this coming. But I'm crashing. I'm suicidal, truly suicidal, for the first time in months and it's taking all I have to not just do it. I don't want to be here anymore. I'm sick of falling too hard, Im sick of this fucking eating disorder, Im sick of the constant anxiety, and I'm sick of my depression always hiding behind the corner and jumping at me full force whenever life is going to well. And the worst part is I can't tell anyone. Fuck.

We can talk in dm if you want

 

[The anhedonic one]

Yes, depression is like some fucking monster waiting in the shadows.
It waits until the worst possible moment, such as when you are in recovery and then pounces to fuck you up again.
So sorry you are going through this. It's brutal.

 

[ayololly]

Here hurting with you.
Hoping you know you can talk here if you need

 

[FuneralCry]

That must be so awful and tiring what you are going through, it's horrible how existing here can very easily just get much worse. But anyway I wish you the best.