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Lost Magic

Lost Magic

Illuminated
May 5, 2020
3,203
I had a cool dream last night. Me and my late mother were painting pictures. She was trying to show me how to blend colours and she was all giddy. I wasn't all that impressed with the paintings but I was so happy to see her again. When I woke up, I felt very strange. I drunk some kratom tea and I plan to get some vodka later to numb the pain. It really sucks to wake up to a broken reality. I sometimes wonder what will happen to my soul (if there is one) when I leave this shit hole. Every day just feels so pointless. Does anybody else feel like waking up to this existence as difficult as I do?
 
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Darkover

Darkover

Archangel
Jul 29, 2021
5,589
being awake is the worst part about life i dreed waking up because i know i'll be bored all day just peacing around with nothing todo no friends no one to talk too, yeah this reailty sure does suck
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,377
To me, it is so horrible waking up and realising that I am still here. I never want to wake ever again. I am very tired of everything. No amount of sleep would ever take away the tiredness that I feel. Living also feels pointless to me as well. It is comforting, the thought of eternal sleep.
 
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Lost Magic

Lost Magic

Illuminated
May 5, 2020
3,203
To me, it is so horrible waking up and realising that I am still here. I never want to wake ever again. I am very tired of everything. No amount of sleep would ever take away the tiredness that I feel. Living also feels pointless to me as well. It is comforting, the thought of eternal sleep.
Yeah, that's how I feel too. It's so tiring being in a body and sleep reminds of us what it is like to get a rest from it for a while. Maybe we do just go to the void when we pass over. Who knows, but let's just hope we all get some good rest when it is all finally over with.
 
Lullaby

Lullaby

🌙
Mar 9, 2022
682
Literally.

I woke up this morning and saw I had a missed call from the hospital. It turns out my dad had a seizure a few hours ago.

I wake up and my plate is immediately full of bad stuff I have to deal with. It's like you can never catch a break, I'm so tired of it. Being asleep is the only escape at this point.
 
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outrider567

Visionary
Apr 5, 2022
2,853
I had a cool dream last night. Me and my late mother were painting pictures. She was trying to show me how to blend colours and she was all giddy. I wasn't all that impressed with the paintings but I was so happy to see her again. When I woke up, I felt very strange. I drunk some kratom tea and I plan to get some vodka later to numb the pain. It really sucks to wake up to a broken reality. I sometimes wonder what will happen to my soul (if there is one) when I leave this shit hole. Every day just feels so pointless. Does anybody else feel like waking up to this existence as difficult as I do?
So true--The two times I dreamt of my late girlfriend, as soon as I woke up,,I broke down
 
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