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Spitfire

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Apr 26, 2020
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This is a really crazy thing that just happened to me!

I am not sure what to think? How would you feel? There is nothing quite like this to have ever happened to me under these overall circumstances taking place in my life right now, with how I feel and think about things.

Obviously, I don't know what life and everything is all about.. and for death and whatever happens to us after we die. Or, if there is a true meaning to all of this, or why we are here in the first place? All of the big questions with no answers...

It would be difficult for me to explain the things in life which have always seemed to be happening to me.. to make me think there is something more to this life, really.

I want to think rationally and in a logically based way from what we do know. No fairy tales or wishful thinking. I have never been about that... I like to try and base things by science, facts, and with evidence.

I always felt there was more to it than we realize, and it is bigger than what our imaginations could ever dream. Like I said, throughout my life there has always been things happening to me which I can not explain. They hint to me by way of providing a subjective-like type of knowledge. It does not seem like it is my mind wanting to see what it wants to see to make sense of things. I truly do not know?

I have never almost been hit by a train before. I mean come on! It is not a common thing...

I was walking through town to get to a bus station, and cut through the woods in a town I do not know. I did not even know there were tracks on the other side of the woods. It was all set up perfectly the whole circumstance, as I stepped out of the woods on the other side; a blind wooded area at the edge of a curve which landed me right directly on the train tracks.

I heard a deafeningly loud horn sound from a train. When I looked.. there was a speeding train that was barreling down on me, at most it was 10-15 feet away from me!

I had to pick it up and run, or else I would have been hit by this train. It happened soo fast!

I don't know guys........... What was that!
I am going to log off for a bit
 
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DyingAlf

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Aug 22, 2020
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Why did you run?
I really don't want to ctb by train but if an opportunity like this presented itself....


Edit: Sorry I realised this sounds judgy. I didn't really mean it that way. Of course if you're not ready to ctb it was sensible to run out of the way. Guess I'm just projecting my own feelings.
 
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not4us

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Sep 21, 2019
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That was CTB test from Jesus. Now he knows you've been BS-ing him all along.
Just joking, glad you managed to dodge the train :wink:
 
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Ghost2211

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Jan 20, 2020
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Accidental suicide. I can see why you ran though. Trains are scary.
 
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TheQ22

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Aug 17, 2020
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Synchronicity.
 
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TheQ22

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Aug 17, 2020
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Sounds like a load of perfectly cut & dried BS.



Are you high sir?
You're in a place where there are lots of people who feel very low and are potentially quite vulnerable, so why are you and the bimbobasketcase going out of your way to try and derail threads and upset other users?

Have you nothing better to do?
 
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Meditation guide

Meditation guide

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Jun 22, 2020
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This is a really crazy thing that just happened to me!

I am not sure what to think? How would you feel? There is nothing quite like this to have ever happened to me under these overall circumstances taking place in my life right now, with how I feel and think about things.

Obviously, I don't know what life and everything is all about.. and for death and whatever happens to us after we die. Or, if there is a true meaning to all of this, or why we are here in the first place? All of the big questions with no answers...

It would be difficult for me to explain the things in life which have always seemed to be happening to me.. to make me think there is something more to this life, really.

I want to think rationally and in a logically based way from what we do know. No fairy tales or wishful thinking. I have never been about that... I like to try and base things by science, facts, and with evidence.

I always felt there was more to it than we realize, and it is bigger than what our imaginations could ever dream. Like I said, throughout my life there has always been things happening to me which I can not explain. They hint to me by way of providing a subjective-like type of knowledge. It does not seem like it is my mind wanting to see what it wants to see to make sense of things. I truly do not know?

I have never almost been hit by a train before. I mean come on! It is not a common thing...

I was walking through town to get to a bus station, and cut through the woods in a town I do not know. I did not even know there were tracks on the other side of the woods. It was all set up perfectly the whole circumstance, as I stepped out of the woods on the other side; a blind wooded area at the edge of a curve which landed me right directly on the train tracks.

I heard a deafeningly loud horn sound from a train. When I looked.. there was a speeding train that was barreling down on me, at most it was 10-15 feet away from me!

I had to pick it up and run, or else I would have been hit by this train. It happened soo fast!

I don't know guys........... What was that!
I am going to log off for a bit
You know what, I relate to everything you said.
 
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TooConscious

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Sep 16, 2020
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Man I wish I could find some tracks. Everywhere within miles to me is protected with chain link fences and the stops camera'd to b'jesus. I've been walking the local woods lately hunting for a tree built perfect for a 12ft + drop hang so your incident would be my dream come true.
 
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shadow7891

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Aug 17, 2020
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The only thing I know about life and when it comes to me, is that it always re-arranges perfectly just to screw me over and puts me in miserable situations that I have to deal with. All my life, series of bad events have been following me, and no matter what I do it seems I can't catch a break. Coincidences? I don't think so.
 
Superdeterminist

Superdeterminist

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Apr 5, 2020
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My opinion? That was just a coincidence. I'm not going to try and predict how I would feel in that same situation, because I can't know. My belief is that our brains desperately attempt to derive meaning from everything by flooding us with feelings, but really there is none.
 
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greebo6

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Sep 11, 2020
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The only thing I know about life and when it comes to me, is that it always re-arranges perfectly just to screw me over and puts me in miserable situations that I have to deal with. All my life, series of bad events have been following me, and no matter what I do it seems I can't catch a break. Coincidences? I don't think so.
Amen. Me too.
 
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DJJE

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Sep 29, 2020
61
I've had similar feelings. I think, if this is the last thing I'm going to do. I want to do it my way and to give others closure on why I'm doing it.
 

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