Is this a sign of something?

[ansuperhero]

- been unknowingly whispering my thoughts out loud for months and then catching myself doing it
- started having mild visual hallucinations a few days ago (I saw a few flying little bugs that disappeared out of nowhere, tried to strike a somewhat unusual-looking bug that flew in a peculiar fashion twice only for it to suddenly disappear with no trace, and have been experiencing weird little yellow sparks and plenty of other little, sudden stuff in my vision)
- might have sleepwalked for the first time some hours ago

The main thing I wonder is if I'm gradually developing psychosis or schizophrenia. I have actually had some dreams in the past of myself developing the latter.
I'm posting this here because I'm probably not going to see a doctor. I might seriously be too damn shy at this point to bring it up to others in real life, and besides, if I were to get some sort of severe onset, then I could simply kill myself.

 

[SoIntoYou]

Psychosis and schizophrenia are just bandaid terms used to explain how the nature of the human mind doesn't fit into the unnatural structure of society, similar to how you take hyper children, sit them in a chair for hours, and when they act up, doctors, in their limited power, just diagnose it as ADD or ADHD. It's not you that's wrong, it's the structure you're forced into.

 

[ansuperhero]

Psychosis and schizophrenia are just bandaid terms used to explain how the nature of the human mind doesn't fit into the unnatural structure of society, similar to how you take hyper children, sit them in a chair for hours, and when they act up, doctors, in their limited power, just diagnose it as ADD or ADHD. It's not you that's wrong, it's the structure you're forced into.

I don't disagree with you in regards to societal complexity inducing mental illness. It's just that it would benefit me if I had more foresight of what I might be developing so that I could at least find ways to minimise how it would appear to others in the event of some mild-moderate onset.

 

[virginiawoolf86]

Psychosis and schizophrenia are just bandaid terms used to explain how the nature of the human mind doesn't fit into the unnatural structure of society, similar to how you take hyper children, sit them in a chair for hours, and when they act up, doctors, in their limited power, just diagnose it as ADD or ADHD. It's not you that's wrong, it's the structure you're forced into.

Being a sufferer, it's something that's hijacked my brain. But having a name for it is mildly comforting. What's not comforting is the insessent need to die that accompanies it.