Mooshi

Mooshi

Across space and across time, I will be there.
Jan 13, 2020
205
For me there are things I want to and that I'm gonna do before I ctb. I'm going to ctb in the end anyways and I'm committed to it, so I might as well do things I've always wanted to do in the mean time.
 
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TheSuicidalEccentric

The universe is wonderful.
Feb 23, 2020
438
I want to destroy the Canadian government.
 
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faust

faust

lost among the stars
Jan 26, 2020
3,138
I have no specific things I dream to do before I die.
But there are some things which I could do:
1) Skydiving
2) Visiting Bolivian Uyuni Salt Flats
3) Visiting Mexican pyramids
4) Trying cocaine
5) Skydiving on cocaine above Uyuni Salt Flats and thinking about Mexican pyramids.
Btw here are those legendary salt flats:
Unnamed
 
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ladolcemorte

ladolcemorte

Experienced
May 5, 2019
286
I want to eat lots and lots of yummy food. McDonalds cheeseburgers and egg mcmuffins. Barbecue chicken pizza. Steak. Jelly bellies.
 
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rntmss

rntmss

Taking it one day at a time
Feb 7, 2020
197
No joke: Have sex with a porn star.

too broke to ever do that so... I think I'm ready to go whenever.
 
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Scooby-Doo

Scooby-Doo

Student
Oct 10, 2019
133
Would love to go to America, love the accent but it's never gonna happen.
 
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Scooby-Doo

Scooby-Doo

Student
Oct 10, 2019
133
I think I could over come my anxiety but wouldn't go on my own and I've nobody to go with.
 
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BPDbitch

BPDbitch

Experienced
Nov 10, 2019
248
Nothing in particular, since I won't remember them when I'm dead anyway.
 
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Mywill

Mywill

Member
Feb 6, 2020
91
I would love to ride a motorbike cross country. Run my first 10k before I die.
 
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popo

popo

Member
Jul 12, 2018
47
Solo trip in a foreign country.
 
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medicore

medicore

The man himself
Nov 1, 2019
62
I want my dog and mother to die, preferably in that order. I can't really "die" them, nor would I kill them had I the chance, but it's something I wish that'd happen before I die. Truth be told, I'm pretty guilty about the fact that in a maximum of ~2 years they'll both be left in the wreck of my departure. It would be better if they were to die before that happened, so that when the time came to ctb, I really wouldn't have anything to lose.
 
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TheSuicidalEccentric

The universe is wonderful.
Feb 23, 2020
438
I want my dog and mother to die, preferably in that order. I can't really "die" them, nor would I kill them had I the chance, but it's something I wish that'd happen before I die. Truth be told, I'm pretty guilty about the fact that in a maximum of ~2 years they'll both be left in the wreck of my departure. It would be better if they were to die before that happened, so that when the time came to ctb, I really wouldn't have anything to lose.

Sounds arrogant.
 
medicore

medicore

The man himself
Nov 1, 2019
62
Sounds arrogant.
You could say that for the human part, yeah. I know for a fact my pet will suffer without me being around. As for my mother.. Well, she spent quite a lot of time living in unfavorable conditions and working in order to foster me into some sort of legacy or carrier for her wishes. After my most recent attempt, she verbalized the offense she took to me prioritizing my lack of will over that. You may take that as you will when considering whether or not what I said was really that arrogant.
 
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TheSuicidalEccentric

The universe is wonderful.
Feb 23, 2020
438
You could say that for the human part, yeah. I know for a fact my pet will suffer without me being around. As for my mother.. Well, she spent quite a lot of time living in unfavorable conditions and working in order to foster me into some sort of legacy or carrier for her wishes. After my most recent, she verbalized the offense she took to me prioritizing my lack of will over that. You may take that as you will when considering whether or not what I said was really that arrogant.

It is arrogant. You wish death upon the woman who gave birth to you and gave you life.
 
medicore

medicore

The man himself
Nov 1, 2019
62
It is arrogant. You wish death upon the woman who gave birth to you and gave you life.
Ah, I see what you meant now. In that case, I can't say I have much of a defense. You're right. Maybe that is pretty screwed.
 
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TheSuicidalEccentric

The universe is wonderful.
Feb 23, 2020
438
Ah, I see what you meant now. In that case, I can't say I have much of a defense. You're right. Maybe that is pretty screwed.

Whatever. It's human nature to be evil. You're not at all to blame
 
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medicore

The man himself
Nov 1, 2019
62
Whatever. It's human nature to be evil. You're not at all to blame
I like to think that it's human nature to be self-preserving, on some level besides physical, and that we are to be blamed by our own moral systems when that nature takes us into whatever bounds we consider to be evil. It's the idea of a self-optimistic person that because it's circumstance that led them to a state like this, that their behavior is excused and shouldn't be met with any sort of judgement, or that because they are like this that it isn't their fault (fault being a synonym for imperfection) that they're like this, etc. That's not really my reason to ctb or anything, but I've fallen so low that I've come to understand that I'm just not a very good person, and that at the end of the day, a lot of the blame is objectiely on me.
 
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TheSuicidalEccentric

The universe is wonderful.
Feb 23, 2020
438
I like to think that it's human nature to be self-preserving, on some level besides physical, and that we are to be blamed by our own moral systems when that nature takes us into whatever bounds we consider to be evil. It's the idea of a self-optimistic person that because it's circumstance that led them to a state like this, that their behavior is excused and shouldn't be met with any sort of judgement, or that because they are like this that it isn't their fault (fault being a synonym for imperfection) that they're like this, etc. That's not really my reason to ctb or anything, but I've fallen so low that I've come to understand that I'm just not a very good person, and that at the end of the day, a lot of the blame is objectiely on me.

I agree with you. Your reasoning is the same as mine and exactly why I am killing myself very soon now
 
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yami9292

yami9292

a sleepy loner
Feb 20, 2019
34
Well I would like to be in a loving relationship and experience like a first love type thing but realistically that won't happen before I ctb but I'd love to visit someone in real life that I really care about that I met online that is high on my list for sure plus he lives in another country and I already wanted to take a trip before I went. I would like to lose some more weight but that's my eating disorder side of me. There is the obvs sorting out my shit before I go but ehh.
 
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yami9292

a sleepy loner
Feb 20, 2019
34
Thanks. I like yours too, even though I don't know where it's from lmao
Me neither lol, I just saw it on twitter and liked it probs from a hentai but haven't seen it in any hentai yet.
 
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Oyoy

Oyoy

Spatula
Feb 2, 2020
741
Your weiner doesn't know if she did porn. Maybe someone will think your the pornstar.
 
Suicide_vampire

Suicide_vampire

In Vino Veritas
Feb 11, 2020
426
I want to see the northern lights in all their glory and fall asleep in a glass roofed cabin watching them. And the opposite side of that coin is some extreme base jumping, if it goes wrong I won't care.
 
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Pol

Pol

Student
Jan 24, 2020
112
make sure my wife has peace of mind, so she can move on as soon as possible.
 
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