Is there anyone here who suffers from body dysmorphia?

[PI3.14]

26M here and I stand at 5'5. It's one of my main reasons that I consider CTB. I'm not planning on CTBing anytime soon. I want to give myself sometimes to do other things like getting a better career, gaining muscles...etc. if that however doesn't change how I feel or how I'm treated, then CTB it's.

 

[LapseInTime]

I personally am AN/BP, dysmorphia is just an aspect of it. I loathe my body. I hate food. I hate the scale. Besides my weight, I hate how I look. After these years, I have good reason to; my hair is gradually thinning, my face is just bad, thighs, belly, all of it. It's consumed me, it's isolated me.

 

[PI3.14]

I personally am AN/BP, dysmorphia is just an aspect of it. I loathe my body. I hate food. I hate the scale. Besides my weight, I hate how I look. After these years, I have good reason to; my hair is gradually thinning, my face is just bad, thighs, belly, all of it. It's consumed me, it's isolated me.

I'm so sorry for what you're going through. It can indeed be exhausting. I sometimes don't even like to look in the mirror.

However, I will leave my final judgment after losing weight and building some muscles which might take 1.5 years.

I can lose weight if I want to, I did many times lose 10-20 pounds but end up gaining it back. I wish I have time for the gym but my college program is so demanding. But I compensate by eating healthy and lower my calories by 500-700 deficit.

 

[the_path_of_sorrows]

Hey, I get you. Body dysmorphia is a bitch. I'm a short muscular natty and I hate every single part of my body. For my career I need some nice photoshoots that include my face and I'm disgusted by all the facial features. I look weird in an ugly way. Also, the darkness in my eyes is so obvious that at times I just shudder if I see pics or vids including me.

 

[PI3.14]

Hey, I get you. Body dysmorphia is a bitch. I'm a short muscular natty and I hate every single part of my body. For my career I need some nice photoshoots that include my face and I'm disgusted by all the facial features. I look weird in an ugly way. Also, the darkness in my eyes is so obvious that at times I just shudder if I see pics or vids including me.

How tall are you? How long did it take for you to start looking muscular? Were you overweight before it?

 

[the_path_of_sorrows]

I was obese 6-7 years ago, then lost 20 kg in a few months cos of an eating disorder. Started exercising at home during the quarantine, then 2 yrs ago began to hit the gym properly. Nowadays I'm one of the most muscular natties at my gym, the muscles are still growing/looking more defined. I'm slightly shorter than you.

 

[PI3.14]

I was obese 6-7 years ago, then lost 20 kg in a few months cos of an eating disorder. Started exercising at home during the quarantine, then 2 yrs ago began to hit the gym properly. Nowadays I'm one of the most muscular natties at my gym, the muscles are still growing/looking more defined. I'm slightly shorter than you.

Good for you man. I'm in need to lose about the same amount of weight as you. I'm confident I can do it as I already lost 10kg before but did gain it back unfortunately. It's just the time it takes to lose the weight that is a bit frustrating. Can't lose more than 3-3.5 kg a month if I intend to do it in a healthy way which is my goal.

 

[CantDoIt]

Body dysmorphia due to premature aging. Never took care of my skin when younger due to depression. Sun damage, years of bad eating, stress, unfavorable genetics. Looks terrible and very embarrassed lol

 

[willitpass]

I have an eating disorder, so very much so. It fluctuates between two extremes, which is very confusing and upsetting. One minute I can look in the mirror and see a twig. Not even 10 minutes later I can look in the mirror and think I'm obese. It is up and down and up and down so I don't know what I truly look like. I get it in other aspects as well. Especially with my face. Sometimes I see my face in the mirror or in a reflection and genuinely don't recognize it. It's terrifying. Even my hands don't look like my own at times.

 

[willow115]

I have an eating disorder, so very much so. It fluctuates between two extremes, which is very confusing and upsetting. One minute I can look in the mirror and see a twig. Not even 10 minutes later I can look in the mirror and think I'm obese. It is up and down and up and down so I don't know what I truly look like. I get it in other aspects as well. Especially with my face. Sometimes I see my face in the mirror or in a reflection and genuinely don't recognize it. It's terrifying. Even my hands don't look like my own at times.

I have all this too. Sometimes I'm disoriented about who is that in the mirror, or what is that, and whose hands are these?

I have real issues. Genetic paleness, facial scarring and stretch marks all over the place. The awareness of flaws or shortcomings is real. It can get blown up in our minds though. We can live. You can live at 5'5. It's the burden and perception of bdd that torments us. That hyperfocus and paranoia that drives someone mad.

 

[PI3.14]

I have all this too. Sometimes I'm disoriented about who is that in the mirror, or what is that, and whose hands are these?

I have real issues. Genetic paleness, facial scarring and stretch marks all over the place. The awareness of flaws or shortcomings is real. It can get blown up in our minds though. We can live. You can live at 5'5. It's the burden and perception of bdd that torments us. That hyperfocus and paranoia that drives someone mad.

I wish that it was only BDD. Some people are genuinely beautiful yet suffer from BDD. I however suffer from it as a reaction to how I'm treated as a 5'5 guy. I'm short, I'm not going to say that no woman want to date a man of this height as there are few who already do, but the majority won't swipe right on a guy of this height while there are better options available. It's just the reality of things.

 

[willow115]

I wish that it was only BDD. Some people are genuinely beautiful yet suffer from BDD. I however suffer from it as a reaction to how I'm treated as a 5'5 guy. I'm short, I'm not going to say that no woman want to date a man of this height as there are few who already do, but the majority won't swipe right on a guy of this height while there are better options available. It's just the reality of things.

I deal with the same reality, yea. I have facial scarring that truly impacts me. I experienced harassment for it. I got a bunch of plastic surgery but still hold the memory. People care about these things, bdd often has some basis in truth. It's the proportions we blow it into. The thing is short men do thrive. It's not a fatal blow in itself. A woman in her 30s/40s past her prime is going to care more about the heart, mind, and ability to provide/partner with her in life. I would still try to invest in myself if I were you.

I wish dating apps never even existed. Modern dating is a mental battlefield for men and women. A lot of people are losing their minds on that these days, shortcomings or not.

 

[PI3.14]

I deal with the same reality, yea. I have facial scarring that truly impacts me. I experienced harassment for it. I got a bunch of plastic surgery but still hold the memory. People care about these things, bdd often has some basis in truth. It's the proportions we blow it into. The thing is short men do thrive. It's not a fatal blow in itself. A woman in her 30s/40s past her prime is going to care more about the heart, mind, and ability to provide/partner with her in life. I would still try to invest in myself if I were you.

I wish dating apps never even existed. Modern dating is a mental battlefield for men and women. A lot of people are losing their minds on that these days, shortcomings or not.

I might be able to live alone until 30-31 but never after.

 

[LunarLight]

Not body dysmorphia strictly speaking, but gender dysphoria. It does have a few things in common.

 

[iloveloving]

Absolutely. I struggle with buying clothes.

 

[supremelimbo]

i haven't eaten in 3 days and i unironically cry when i look in the mirror. i have 2k photos on my phone and only like 5 are of me and none contain my face

 

[the_path_of_sorrows]

Good for you man. I'm in need to lose about the same amount of weight as you. I'm confident I can do it as I already lost 10kg before but did gain it back unfortunately. It's just the time it takes to lose the weight that is a bit frustrating. Can't lose more than 3-3.5 kg a month if I intend to do it in a healthy way which is my goal.

Don't push yourself too hard! That's a great goal. You'll manage.

 

[Petrichor]

I like, suffer from disordered eating (not bad enough to be an eating disorder lol, I do restrict a little bit) and I very well might(?) have a body or facial dysmorphia. I don't have an official diagnosis for it and I don't want to get one, it's probably just that I am that ugly.
I'm 5'4-5'5 (around 166cm) and 55kg (15kg too heavy tbh)..

Spoilering the massive rant about how I hate how I look since I don't want to trigger anyone.

I used to be unable to look in mirrors without feeling physically ill, I've improved in that regard but now i'm on the opposite end. I constantly check every reflective surface and can spend hours in the bathroom either skin picking or looking at all the flaws in my face and body.
I don't know whether this is concurrent with other people with facial dysmorphia but some of my features (primarily my eyes) every time I look they either look creepily big or too small for my fat face. The worst part is when I look at my chin and jawline, I'm half german and so I have that classic german chin, not to mention I have a sort of underdeveloped jawline and it's the ugliest thing you could ever see. My double chin is so prominent because of my jawline, I must be vile to look at when I move my head around. I look most disgusting from a side view, you can see my fat round fucking chin always.
Don't even get me started on my body though, I look so fucking fat, I'm like an apple or a rectangle, I have ugly ass hip dips and my hips aren't wide at all, my stomach flabs over slightly, my boobs are so fucking small and triangular, my arms are so fat at the top, my fingers always look so chubby and I have calluses from the gym, and all of the fucking stretch marks, do NOT get me started.