Is there anyone here who hate/hated college?

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

Maybe hate is a strong word. I have had some decent experiences, met some nice people and had overall amazing professors. But I also had shitty experiences
1) Bullying (people laughing at me in class, calling me names, etc)
2) sexual assault (in the first club I joined which was an anime club)
3) didnt necessary make "the best friends for life"
4) reported my assault and saw that my school didn't care about me and put the responsibility on me to "be happy" with my assaulter around

I could go into more but experiences like this make me wonder and ask myself (what did I do wrong? why did this happen to me?"

I thought college was supposed to be the "best 4 years of your life?" for me it was partly hell due the aformentinoied experiences. After being abused at home and in other schools I figured college would have better people but I guess not. This was within my first 4 years of college.

 

[feelsbadman]

In my experience, in college, people just don't care enough or have the energy to bully people, completely different from highschool. Did you go to a community college?

Yeah I think from 4 years of college I took away a single friend, and maybe 1 or 2 other job connections.

 

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

In my experience, in college, people just don't care enough or have the energy to bully people, completely different from highschool. Did you go to a community college?

Yeah I think from 4 years of college I took away a single friend, and maybe 1 or 2 other job connections.

Nah it was a university

 

[feelsbadman]

I had a great time my last semester with my good friend inviting me to parties. I guess what they say, it's what you make it is true, but if I'm dead who cares anyways?

Nah it was a university

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I guess you're European? In America, college == university, all the same shit. But yeah, still, it all sucks

 

[Thinking]

I'm supposed to start college in August, but with this economy, what's the point? At least in the US, I still don't think there will be any jobs in four years. So I think I have to ctb definitely before I graduate and hopefully before I form any connections

 

[feelsbadman]

I'm supposed to start college in August, but with this economy, what's the point? At least in the US, I still don't think there will be any jobs in four years. So I think I have to ctb definitely before I graduate and hopefully before I form any connections

It's kinda crazy I remember saying I'd kill myself in college years ago. Now I'm graduated and making 99th percentile money. Hopefully you are successful. (The only success is death.)

 

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

I had a great time my last semester with my good friend inviting me to parties. I guess what they say, it's what you make it is true, but if I'm dead who cares anyways?
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I guess you're European? In America, college == university, all the same shit. But yeah, still, it all sucks

No lol I live in the US

 

[feelsbadman]

No lol I live in the US

That's crazy because I have never in my life heard anyone refer to college & university as different concepts, nor have I heard of anyone hearing anyone refer to these as different shits, and I've lived here my entire 25 years lmao. But yeah I guess if you want to get, uh, technical, I went to "university". The only place people refer to these as different in my EXP is Europe.

 

[Life sucks]

I love knowledge but completely hate academics and my experience was shitty.

 

[feelsbadman]

I love knowledge but completely hate academics and my experience was shitty.

I hate everything.

 

[Malletboy]

I had a mixed bag; I made some of my best friends that are like a second family to me. I partied and drank a bunch. I learned a lot. I got to pursue my passion and practice it every single day. But being in school made me miserable. I hated my workload and being in class. I despised studying or doing homework. My sleep was off for 80% of college and I sank into a deep depression several times throughout my time there. I was hospitalized for the first time by a school therapist. I took a long break because I couldn't handle being in school anymore. So now I have to return and I'm nervous. Lots of positives and negatives, but that's life I guess.

 

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

I love knowledge but completely hate academics and my experience was shitty.

Mind if I ask what about your experience was shitty?

 

[Thinking]

It's kinda crazy I remember saying I'd kill myself in college years ago. Now I'm graduated and making 99th percentile money. Hopefully you are successful. (The only success is death.)

Thank you. I just need the guts to do it and to get over any guilt feelings. My plan is to get a job so hopefully I can save up the money for N. There's just a lot of logistics to work out. It's scary

 

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

I had a mixed bag; I made some of my best friends that are like a second family to me. I partied and drank a bunch. I learned a lot. I got to pursue my passion and practice it every single day. But being in school made me miserable. I hated my workload and being in class. I despised studying or doing homework. My sleep was off for 80% of college and I sank into a deep depression several times throughout my time there. I was hospitalized for the first time by a school therapist. I took a long break because I couldn't handle being in school anymore. So now I have to return and I'm nervous. Lots of positives and negatives, but that's life I guess.

I wish I got to make friends. Instead I got bullied for whatever reason

 

[feelsbadman]

Thank you. I just need the guts to do it and to get over any guilt feelings. My plan is to get a job so hopefully I can save up the money for N. There's just a lot of logistics to work out. It's scary

I think the scariest part is how much we convince ourselves we're ready to die when we aren't actually ready yet. The actual methods are just details.

 

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

I dunno I just feel I always got screwed over in life. Like I joined an anime club cause I love anime and I suffer the worst bullying since high school and was sexually abused

 

[Thinking]

I think the scariest part is how much we convince ourselves we're ready to die when we aren't actually ready yet. The actual methods are just details.

I don't know... Maybe that's true. I think it would be easier if I didn't have to worry about traumatizing so many people who would be left behind

 

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

I don't know... Maybe that's true. I think it would be easier if I didn't have to worry about traumatizing so many people who would be left behind

So many people abused me I dont care who gets traumatized since nobody gave a fuck about me and treated me like a fucking punching bag

 

[Thinking]

I dunno I just feel I always got screwed over in life. Like I joined an anime club cause I love anime and I suffer the worst bullying since high school and was sexually abused

I feel for you. People really suck. It's crazy that here on SS people are so kind and welcoming and supportive. It's the exact opposite of what we're led to believe.

 

[Life sucks]

Mind if I ask what about your experience was shitty?

Physical, sexual and psychological abuse, bullying, and then there is the shitty academic torture (exams, grades, etc) that has no relation to reality and knowledge and just a way of abuse and indoctrination.

 

[SSlostallhope]

I hated college as it was the first time I really felt free. I was out of the house at 6am and sometimes didn't get home till midnight with my job after college I barely saw my mum. I was 17 by then, never smoked, never drank, never had a boyfriend , never wore makeup or perfume. I felt very behind my peers and it showed with how scared I was most days

 

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

Physical, sexual and psychological abuse, bullying, and then there is the shitty academic torture (exams, grades, etc) that has no relation to reality and knowledge and just a way of abuse and indoctrination.

Was this all in college? Irregardless, my heart breaks for you "hugs*

I hated college as it was the first time I really felt free. I was out of the house at 6am and sometimes didn't get home till midnight with my job after college I barely saw my mum. I was 17 by then, never smoked, never drank, never had a boyfriend , never wore makeup or perfume. I felt very behind my peers and it showed with how scared I was most days

Ugh same. I was super behind and didnt know how to have fun

 

[Thinking]

So many people abused me I dont care who gets traumatized since nobody gave a fuck about me and treated me like a fucking punching bag

I'm sorry that you had to grow up in that way. Hopefully it will make things a little easier when the time comes to ctb *hugs*

 

[Life sucks]

Was this all in college? Irregardless, my heart breaks for you "hugs*

Ugh same. I was super behind and didnt know how to have fun

Oh sorry I didn't read the title well, it was the whole academic thing, schools and college. College was mostly academic torture and psychological abuse. Hugs to you too

 

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

Oh sorry I didn't read the title well, it was the whole academic thing, schools and college. College was mostly academic torture and psychological abuse. Hugs to you too

Academically including college it was torture for me as well. Was the abuse from professors or your peers?

 

[Life sucks]

Academically including college it was torture for me as well. Was the abuse from professors or your peers?

Both

 

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

Both

*hugs*. I had a professor make a weird remark to me in class about pregnancy. I have also had classmates laugh behind my back singly for getting an answer right. I thought people would grow up but the time they are in college

I just wonder....maybe some of us are meant to be abused and used for life