Desdemona
Member
- Oct 14, 2020
- 88
Unable to work, unable to have a social life of any sort, etc due to chronic pain? Feeling super alone today. I'm in my mid twenties and my life has essentially been ruined and I have no reasons to go on anymore.
BlueSphere
Member
- Oct 20, 2020
- 15
Same here, I don't work but I go outside while I still can, talking to people or being outside distracts me from the pain, I also take hydrocodone, but after 1 year of taking it daily I think my stomach is ruined which just made things worse
Meditation guide
Always was, is, and always shall be.
- Jun 22, 2020
- 6,089
I'm sure that there are several like that. No quality of life is a valid reason to ctb for some of us.
Im in my mid twenties as well and my life got fully ruined at the age of 22 and ive been mostly housebound ever since ,i cant go out,cant do a job, cant enjoy life anymore, my condition is to do with the brain ,as in its not functioning properly, im now 25 ,so been like this for 3 years, and ill have to stay like this forever (like another 40-50 years) if i dont do something about it, by "doing something" i mean ctb, so if i dont ctb now ill have to be like this for a long time till i die of natural causes !
dropdeadfred
Boarding the bus to Everlasting Dreamland ♡
- Oct 19, 2020
- 256
I feel this a lot. Chronic freaking fatigue! I don't think I will see past this weekend. Not only is my quality of life super low due to, but I am barely making it financially.
NightmareTour
Specialist
- May 13, 2020
- 398
I haven't been outside except to go to hospital for a good few months now due to chronic fatigue, pain, and my mental health too. I've kind of adapted to it and don't have anyone in my life I trust anyway, it's more the things causing it that bother me.
Yes I live like a hermit. I've had health problems most my adult life and it has prevented me from being the person I feel I am inside. I managed to get myself a lot better but it all came crashing down and I'm much worse than before. I feel trapped in my own body. I believe in reincarnation and that gives me some comfort that this isn't my only shot at life
Mr.Nobody
Student
- Jan 30, 2020
- 108
Pho3nix
Wishing for eternal sleep
- Oct 20, 2020
- 398
I have a horrible illness and I'm on lockdown anyway so can't go out. I haven't left the building since August.
ghost-key
A Nord's Last Thought Should Be Of Home.
- Oct 22, 2018
- 15
I don't, no. I have what you could call "functioning depression" where I go to work everyday, 8 hours or more a day. I go to the laundromat, grocery shopping, etc...but I hate it. I'd rather stay home and get lost in my world of video games. I don't know what's worse to be honest. Being stuck at home depressed or having to fake your own smile, happiness and pretend everything is okay when you're slowly falling apart inside.
i have IBS and it limits me. Im not housebound by it but its been limiting my whole life
Soul
gate gate paragate parasamgate bodhi svaha
- Apr 12, 2019
- 4,704
I went to a clinic for a flu vaccine yesterday; it's the first time I've been out since March. That's the pandemic, though. I used to be able to go out in my wheelchair if one of my "caretakers" has the patience to help me.
Kcountdown
Member
- Oct 16, 2020
- 8
Chronic pain is what made me finally sign up for this site, there are days where I cling to the hope that I'll find a doctor that can help me but other days I just go into my backyard and stare at my noose wondering if todays the day. So far I always find a reason to keep myself going but one of these days I know I'm gonna run out of reasons and just embrace the end. Wouldn't wish constant daily pain on my worst enemies after dealing with it myself.
Yes me! I hardly ever leave the house. Between chronic pain, severe IBS and my agoraphobia from ptsd and anxiety I'm housebound. I'm in my late 20s. I haven't worked in years. It's hard and sad...I wish I was normal. For everyone going through this sending hugs.
I have a extreme facial skull deformity. A thing you see in those really weard youtube videos and gore pictures. Does that count? I know how you feel about the isolation its a sad lonely world for people who have really nothing. It even hurts more because i cant relate to a lot of people here because something like i have make some peoples problems look like nothing in comparison. I wished i just knew somebody like me :/ i know some people with the same condition but my case is way more extreme then theirs. It makes me very very lonely because no one knows what im going trough and nothing can fix it 
Yes chronic pain is the reason. Failing at partial suspension sometimes anxiety sometimes the knot. Need help on that
rabbithole
Experienced
- Oct 26, 2020
- 271
Yeah, I also have a horrible pain condition. Also no sexual function due to spinal cord injury. Miss my job and school so much. No one should take the small things for granted.
Does your deformity cause pain? I hope not. I hope and pray you're able to get help from the right doctors. Have you had a diagnosis?
I totally understand not being able to relate to anyone's problems. People complain about losing their s/o or having financial problems but imagine losing your entire life to a disability and being in chronic pain that prevents you from working, going to school, making money, having a relationship and there's literally no fixing it.I have a extreme facial skull deformity. A thing you see in those really weard youtube videos and gore pictures. Does that count? I know how you feel about the isolation its a sad lonely world for people who have really nothing. It even hurts more because i cant relate to a lot of people here because something like i have make some peoples problems look like nothing in comparison. I wished i just knew somebody like me :/ i know some people with the same condition but my case is way more extreme then theirs. It makes me very very lonely because no one knows what im going trough and nothing can fix it
Does your deformity cause pain? I hope not. I hope and pray you're able to get help from the right doctors. Have you had a diagnosis?
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W’ren
Worthless
- Oct 28, 2020
- 559
I have chronic pain, chronic migraines, 2 fused cervical vertebrae, chronic fatigue, and ibs- and i also have grade 3/4 prolapses of my bladder and uterus plus a rectocele- i'm awaiting surgery for the last 3 things... i always miss things when i try to remember everything that's physically wrong... sigh. Oh yeah- and the last 3 things get in the way of sexual relations so yay me.
And that's not even touching on my severe anxiety/agoraphobia that's getting worse the longer this city stayed on lock down- and now i'm a mess and i won't grocery shop until i'm desperate.
I feel you. Today was a gorgeous day outside... I have a dog- and the only time i get out is to go for a slow walk on a route with him. He's an old man now, so he waits for me to catch up and doesn't pull. He's a good boy.
Otherwise it's just me, in this place. Alone.
My bf visits but lately it's for maybe 30 min? I think he forgets that he sees people and does things- but i only see him- :/ And i think the lack of sexu
If anyone ever want needs to chat, i'm around, and i'm often online- because- where else would i be? Lol.
Chronic pain and disabilities that keep us isolated super bite, and the isolation is extreme for us no matter what the condition is.
I know that, for me, the Covid isolation on top of my 'regular' isolation is making things so much worse. I mean, a couple of people used to come and visit 1 or 2 times a month... now they don't. And i had a government provided houseworker who'd come + vacuum and do light cleaning...who hasn't been since march. Seeing her 1x a week was kind of social. :/
Things are so lonely. I have my dog at least- but human contact, even for an introvert, is so needed.
And that's not even touching on my severe anxiety/agoraphobia that's getting worse the longer this city stayed on lock down- and now i'm a mess and i won't grocery shop until i'm desperate.
I feel you. Today was a gorgeous day outside... I have a dog- and the only time i get out is to go for a slow walk on a route with him. He's an old man now, so he waits for me to catch up and doesn't pull. He's a good boy.
Otherwise it's just me, in this place. Alone.
My bf visits but lately it's for maybe 30 min? I think he forgets that he sees people and does things- but i only see him- :/ And i think the lack of sexu
If anyone ever want needs to chat, i'm around, and i'm often online- because- where else would i be? Lol.
Chronic pain and disabilities that keep us isolated super bite, and the isolation is extreme for us no matter what the condition is.
I know that, for me, the Covid isolation on top of my 'regular' isolation is making things so much worse. I mean, a couple of people used to come and visit 1 or 2 times a month... now they don't. And i had a government provided houseworker who'd come + vacuum and do light cleaning...who hasn't been since march. Seeing her 1x a week was kind of social. :/
Things are so lonely. I have my dog at least- but human contact, even for an introvert, is so needed.
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I have cerebral palsy, chronic pain. I worked for a few years with a lot of help of others but I retired at 35. I can't walk or do routine tasks alone. I feel sad, alone and I don't have the physical possibility of catch the bus. I know everyone of you get me. This web if very supportive and I thank you for that. Hugs
