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noname223

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Aug 18, 2020
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The easy answer would be all the gore I watched as a teen. As I wrote million times I truely regret to have watched this. It was a toxic coping skill to deal with domestic violence and bullying. I would not recommend it to anyone.

When I was acute suicidal I had nightmares about it. The worst memory is the beheading of a young woman. I stopped skipping through the video because it was too much for me. I think after this one I stopped watching very explicit content. I feel so bad for that woman. I feel like it was disrespectful to watch that. I was young, stupid and suicidal. I think the first videos I watched were on Youtube.

The interesting thing would be TV series which I watched myriads of times because they were thrilling and being able to erase the memory would make it possible to experience the first time with them a second time.

When I was younger I listened to very very mediocre free access newspaper articles. In general I try to filter out mediocre content creators in order to replace them with high quality often scientifical sources I might be too nostalgic in some cases to break up with old habits.
 
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Life_and_Death

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Jul 1, 2020
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the r*pe videos my husband showed me as a teenager...
i still see them in my head sometimes....
 
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