Is there a specific thing you would like to do before you go ?

[Olek Messier 87]

(Something important to the point that you would regret to leave before accomplishing it)

 

[Forever Sleep]

There are a few places I'd like to visit/revisit. Mostly water related- the coastline, rivers, waterfalls. How about you?

 

[Olek Messier 87]

There are a few places I'd like to visit/revisit. Mostly water related- the coastline, rivers, waterfalls. How about you?

That's very cool, well I hope you'll have the opportunity to go there, or go back. For me, it was to make a series of comics and get published; and both have been done, so...

 

[Forever Sleep]

That's very cool, well I hope you'll have the opportunity to go there, or go back. For me, it was to make a series of comics and get published; and both have been done, so...

That's awesome. Congratulations.

 

[Olek Messier 87]

That's awesome. Congratulations.

Thank you very much, I'd like to tell you that it has put me on the starting line of recovery, as I thought it would, but not a bit really.
So, we're talking about Ireland ? Scotland ? This kind of coastline ?

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Nope, there's nothing that I want to do. I simply don't like life itself and there's nothing in life that I want to do

 

[lamargue]

sex

 

[Olek Messier 87]

Nope, there's nothing that I want to do. I simply don't like life itself and there's nothing in life that I want to do

That's tough, didn't find anything yet maybe.

sex

Well, can't help you with that, pal
Sounds perfectly reachable though.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Thank you very much, I'd like to tell you that it has put me on the starting line of recovery, as I thought it would, but not a bit really.
So, we're talking about Ireland ? Scotland ? This kind of coastline ?

I can relate actually. I'm creative too. I used to believe it was all I'd ever need if I could do it as my job. Hard to know whether it's because it's constantly under threat as a career. Whether it has just kind of consumed my life and I'm still not as good as I want to be. Just the colossal amount of time and energy it takes up. The other shit you have to take on board doing it as a job- tax returns, complying to briefs etc. I don't get as much out of it as I used to though. It's still by far the better of the evils and I'm massively grateful for it still but, I don't know. Just as a coping mechanism, it isn't doing what it was quite so well.

Do you still enjoy drawing, writing, creating? I think it's quite often a love, hate relationship with creative people and their work. It can be as equally frustrating as it is fulfilling.

I'd really like to visit The Strid river. We wooshed past it once going somewhere else and it looked beautiful. Deadly too. A very dangerous river. Not that that would be my method! I'd like to see The Lake District again. Only briefly been to Scotland and never to Ireland but I'm sure they are very beautiful. I probably should look into them. Have you travelled much? Any recommendations?

 

[FuneralCry]

No, in my case I only wish and hope to never exist again, personally I just wish for eternal nothingness, I'd never wish to suffer in this painful and torturous existence, I find existing deeply undesirable and I simply don't wish to experience anything at all, I suffer simply from existing.

 

[Roadrunner]

Nope, just want it all to end. Unfortunately I don't have the guts to do it. I can't explain it, just don't. Guess I don't want it bad enough "yet"?

 

[yariousvamp]

The thing that I want the most is to move out from my shit country, and I will not think about death again

But as long as I'm here, i just wanna die.

 

[Olek Messier 87]

I'd really like to visit The Strid river. We wooshed past it once going somewhere else and it looked beautiful. Deadly too. A very dangerous river. Not that that would be my method! I'd like to see The Lake District again. Only briefly been to Scotland and never to Ireland but I'm sure they are very beautiful. I probably should look into them. Have you travelled much? Any recommendations?

These places look amazing, exactly the kind I like too; It would take balls to choose this way of leaving indeed, or a real passion for nature !
I've never been that much of a traveler but I think you could certainly like any part of the French coast, Brittany, or even the Verdon.

Do you still enjoy drawing, writing, creating? I think it's quite often a love, hate relationship with creative people and their work. It can be as equally frustrating as it is fulfilling.

Yes it really is a demanding work but I still enjoy it as much, however it's a pleasure that tends to drive you more and more crazy. Alone behind your drawing table 12 hours a day on average, it's a bit alienating, especially when you are subject to the kind of disorders that we share on this forum.
I think it is high time to stop all that, for my part.

Nope, just want it all to end. Unfortunately I don't have the guts to do it. I can't explain it, just don't. Guess I don't want it bad enough "yet"?

Probably yes, but I don't see what's wrong with it. The reason we're all still here is precisely because we don't want it bad enough. I knew a man who committed suicide by stabbing himself forty times in his family home (absolutely true story), that's the kind of motivation I don't have.

The thing that I want the most is to move out from my shit country, and I will not think about death again

But as long as I'm here, i just wanna die.

Well, let's hope you'll have the opportunity to go somewhere else. What's your country (if you don't mind me asking) ?

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

No . i don't want to do anything except ctb. I don't want anything in this evil life and this evil world.

No one can convince me that I should want to do anything especially not live.

No one can convince my why I have to think something is important , valuable , good .

nothing matters.

The only thing that matters to me is avoiding long lasting excruciating unbearable pain and extreme suffering. so someone would have to first convince me that anything is important good by itself and then good enough to go through undending constant excruciating unbearable pain : good luck with that . I can't say this practically anywhere else so all i can do is challenge those here to prove to me convince how anything is objectively valuable . there isn't anything except avoiding extreme pain as i described. life is meaningless. there is no purpose to life. nothing matters. that stands alone by itself : nothing matters life is meaningless . but on top of that you had that you have to risk extreme torture for meaningless addictions . on top of that you have to work like a animal every day and every day lower level suffering problems bad memories not the extreme pain yet but that will get there by age 85 believe me. additionally you are prisoner slave in an imposition and they made more of a prison by criminalizing Nembutal assisted suicide etc. so it's multiple levels of reasons summed . and then on top of that I am just 30 trillion cells same cells as any other DNA machine . and there's even more i won't say . all this for some dumb addiction like watching youtube or whatever they say is soo good or important . i reject it all . non-existence is the only thing i crave because it's the oppossite of this horrible prison world and evil life . nothing matters. life is meaningless suffering torture prison slavery an evil imposition.
I could expand each of these sentences into a book to describe and explain the hell more. and add many more chapters.

 

[Olek Messier 87]

No . i don't want to do anything except ctb. I don't want anything in this evil life and this evil world.

No one can convince me that I should want to do anything especially not live.

No one can convince my why I have to think something is important , valuable , good .

nothing matters.

The only thing that matters to me is avoiding long lasting excruciating unbearable pain and extreme suffering. so someone would have to first convince me that anything is important good by itself and then good enough to go through undending constant excruciating unbearable pain : good luck with that . I can't say this practically anywhere else so all i can do is challenge those here to prove to me convince how anything is objectively valuable . there isn't anything except avoiding extreme pain as i described. life is meaningless. there is no purpose to life. nothing matters. that stands alone by itself : nothing matters life is meaningless . but on top of that you had that you have to risk extreme torture for meaningless addictions . on top of that you have to work like a animal every day and every day lower level suffering problems bad memories not the extreme pain yet but that will get there by age 85 believe me. additionally you are prisoner slave in an imposition and they made more of a prison by criminalizing Nembutal assisted suicide etc. so it's multiple levels of reasons summed . and then on top of that I am just 30 trillion cells same cells as any other DNA machine . and there's even more i won't say . all this for some dumb addiction like watching youtube or whatever they say is soo good or important . i reject it all . non-existence is the only thing i crave because it's the oppossite of this horrible prison world and evil life . nothing matters. life is meaningless suffering torture prison slavery an evil imposition.
I could expand each of these sentences into a book to describe and explain the hell more. and add many more chapters.

Are you 85 years old? Have you suffered like this all your life ?

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

Are you 85 years old? Have you suffered like this all your life ?

I worked in a nursing home and saw many people suffering unimaginable suffering pain nightmares dementia etc.

I've talked to many people here suffering extreme torture . we've seen many cases just on this site. and most of those were young on this site

also others here who worked in nursing homes confirmed what i said.

additionally on the internet i've seen hundreds of cases of extremely horrible hells happening to many people

 

[Olek Messier 87]

I see. I happen to be going to a unit like this every week for the past 2 years now, and I understand better where you get such a radical point of view from. There are enough occasions to see terrible things just by being a simple visitor, so I can't even imagine what it must be like to work there.
I can easily imagine that many nurses and caretakers who work in these types of establishments could think pretty much like this, even though the ones I see show an amount of patience that most people are not capable of.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Probably have sex one more time. I'll probably have to utilize the services of a pro, though.

 

[genoke]

Niners to win superbowl. We blew two 10 point leads over Mahomes twice in 5 years. We had 10 point lead with the ball and 6 minutes left and we still lost.

Probably have sex one more time. I'll probably have to utilize the services of a pro, though.

If you end up in Vegas.. pm me.

 

[lnlybnny]

Yes... I have to admit it would be so much easier if there wasn't :|

 

[astonishedturnip]

I'd love to go on a proper romantic date with someone I have chemistry with. Get swept off my feet a bit. Never happened in my life. My dates so far have been few, extremely unhappy and painful like pulling teeth.

Unfortunately they don't really make "boyfriend experiences" for straight women Oh well. Guess I'll just keep chugging along

 

[27ClubSoon]

I wanted to have and raise a child, that is no longer a possibility.

It's odd because it's something I knew I always wanted but not to this extent. I was much more career driven, individualistic, self-improvement drive, Achievement etc before.

Now I know I cannot have a child I really realise how much that idea meant to me.

 

[Ffaxanadu]

I would like to resolve some issues with some people who have played an important role in my life; unfortunately, they are people who are no longer my friends, or with whom I have lost contact.

I wish I could be at peace with those people.

I guess I'll have to deal with it and live with the knowledge that not all problems can be solved by dialogue.

 

[divinemistress36]

I'd love to go on a proper romantic date with someone I have chemistry with. Get swept off my feet a bit. Never happened in my life. My dates so far have been few, extremely unhappy and painful like pulling teeth.

Unfortunately they don't really make "boyfriend experiences" for straight women Oh well. Guess I'll just keep chugging along

Thats what male escorts are for
Skydiving and drugs

 

[Steff1337]

Yes, but since I'm disabled, it ain't gonna happen.

 

[astonishedturnip]

Thats what male escorts are for
Skydiving and drugs

I read this as "that's what they're for -- skydiving and drugs" at first, and thought wow, didn't know sex work could have such a thrilling angle

You're right, though most I've seen in my area are for gay men only. Oh well, time for some research lmao.

 

[divinemistress36]

I wrote that wrong haha meant to be seperate responses. But sex should be thrilling like that! You know rich women got some hot male escorts!

 

[Olek Messier 87]

Skydiving and drugs

At the same time ?

 

[StaticCryBabye]

Sleep by the sea at night.

 

[themummyreturns]

One more Vegas trip!