My life is very difficult right now. I struggle even to write this here. Sometimes I think it's impressive how crippling my mental issues can become. Have you ever found an "a-ha" moment where you were absolutely certain you had to kill yourself? I don't even know if feeling so sure of your decision is possible. Even when I look at my life and all looks doomed, and it is so hard to live, I can't find it in me to be 100% certain that I want to die. I don't know why. I've been in this forum a long time and I am still here... I wish I could find some "peace" with my decision (if that is possible) to go and just through with it. What are your experiences? I am also Brazilian (in case any Brazilians are reading this and want to reply in Portuguese)
alienfreak
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- Sep 25, 2024
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It happened to me in the past. Maybe it was the best I ever felt: all my problems dissolved and i felt a massive weight lifted because i knew i didnt have to deal with any of it. I was 100% sure. Somehow my life got better after that and i recovered, since unexpected things happened, and maybe as a result of some crazy paradox because it made me feel better. But now over half a decade later i end up back here and cant get back to that state so far. I'd guess not everyone has this experience.
pthnrdnojvsc
Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
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