Is suicide the only way out of the hell hole?

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

Where I am right now, it isn't reasonable or financially possible to move out of my abusive household. I hate it here and COVID has made things worse

I am convinced that, perhaps by suicide, I will finally find the peace I wasn't granted and will be happier in another realm/place

 

[Deleted member 17949]

idk man, it always hurts to see someone CTB because of their living situation rather than an actual hatred of themselves and life. Is there nowhere you can go? Can't even just outright run away? You'd really have to talk to someone in detail about your situation to get better options here, but I hope you try other things before dying because of a shitty household.

 

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

Its not just the household

For a while I actually stayed on campus to get away. Even still, I wanted to die whenever I got into conflict with my roommates and the trauma of having been assaulted within my school. So....even if I was out of home I'd probably still want to die anyways

 

[EmbraceOfTheVoid]

Suicide is inevitable for me both because my circumstances are awful and the world is a terrible place. As you said "I'd probably still want to die anyway."

I am 30 and am too disabled from various forms of trauma to ever realistically manage to escape my household without external help which is generally nowhere to be found. Suicide is the only way to escape for me but it depends on your personal circumstances.

 

[DeadButDreaming]

I'm only holding on because of alcoholism, and this is unsustainable due to finances. I'm currently losing weight so it will take less alcohol to comatise me.