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Darkover
Angelic
- Jul 29, 2021
- 4,202
I don't think the pleasure is worth the suffering, its too uneven. Having to go through so much BS for a few stolen moments of joy hardly seems fair to me. One thing I've realized about life is just how much waiting we have to do for so little reward.
I feel like I just tread water, or go in circles while I wait for the next dopamine hit. It comes in a flash, then it's gone, then its back to waiting, in a vicious cycle. If I had had the option, I would have said thanks but no thanks to all this.
Life seems to me to be a negative phenomenon in general: it looks like a process of decay/slow dying/escape from death. Yes, there is pleasure to be found here, but it feels like a temporary relief of a fundamentally broken existence.
Sex Animal instinct to propagate species.
An evolutionary trick to compel people to breed
Not only is it primitive but it's the very fucking thing that brought me into existence and the root of all my suffering, misery, struggles and all the unnecessary bullshit!
It's mind-boggling how just simply fucking for who knows how many minutes of pleasure it gave my fucking biological parents would cause a goddamn lifetime of suffering!
I feel like I just tread water, or go in circles while I wait for the next dopamine hit. It comes in a flash, then it's gone, then its back to waiting, in a vicious cycle. If I had had the option, I would have said thanks but no thanks to all this.
Life seems to me to be a negative phenomenon in general: it looks like a process of decay/slow dying/escape from death. Yes, there is pleasure to be found here, but it feels like a temporary relief of a fundamentally broken existence.
Sex Animal instinct to propagate species.
An evolutionary trick to compel people to breed
Not only is it primitive but it's the very fucking thing that brought me into existence and the root of all my suffering, misery, struggles and all the unnecessary bullshit!
It's mind-boggling how just simply fucking for who knows how many minutes of pleasure it gave my fucking biological parents would cause a goddamn lifetime of suffering!