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- May 4, 2022
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This post is related to a lot of others on here but I wanted to make an individual thread on it specifically. I want to first say that I'm not doubting that there are very severe conditions out there that can be debhiltating for people, eg. bipolar. I'm by no means saying these don't exist.
Rather selfishly, I'm focusing on someone like me. I have little doubt that I would be diagnosed with mild to moderate depression if I went to my GP now. I have been in the past. I suppose it's a sort of higher functioning depression though... Most of my lethargy comes through laziness- I can get out of bed, I do maintain personal hygiene, I do for the majority of the time sleep ok, I can hold down a job, my appetite is fine.
As I've mentioned before- suicidal ideation seems linked to depression in popular opinion. (Which is why I'm posting this here rather than in off-topic.)
Depression is seen as a distortion of thinking- or- a mental illness. It seems to be a pivotal reason as to why there is such opposition to the mentally ill/suicidal being granted assisted euthanasia- because we're not thinking clearly- so need to be protected from our inner demons (I suppose...)
I really wanted to focus on this idea of depression (specifically mild to moderate) as an 'illness' though. Perhaps I'm wrong but I imagine the majority of depressions come about as a response to a bad life circumstance. I am aware that it CAN happen to otherwise optimistic people (a friend of mine developed depression as a side effect to the medication they were on.) Still- I would imagine for the majority of people, there was/continues to be a trigger. (I also suspect you can be predisposed to develop it through genetics- although again- I imagine life circumstances have a role to play.)
Surely- for starters- this is a natural reaction. If something traumatic or just a realisation of profound dissatisfaction occurs- you're not going to be happy about it! I suppose the definition for a depressive disorder rather than just sadness is that it is prolonged and that it starts to mess with all your thinking- ie. you start to not enjoy anything anymore- even things that used to give you pleasure.
I don't know how I feel about that- on the one hand- it makes a kind of sense... Our brains are learning machines after all. When we practice at something a lot, those neurological pathways become reinforced and we become good or 'natural' at something. Makes sense that- if you think negatively a lot- you'll become good at that too! Still again- is this 'illness' or is it just the brain doing what it does?
I've found that during my brief experiences of therapy, they try to work out what brings (or brought you) joy- in the hopes you can find your way back there. Not to say I'm criticising that. It's more this idea of- your way of (learned) thinking has now become wrong or 'ill.'
So- for example- my college therapist identified my best friend as a former source of joy (and I've noticed that a few other threads on friendship have popped up here recently.) It was a fair enough observation but in my experience (and that of others here), friendship isn't brilliantly reliable. Certainly not as an emotional crutch. In fact, I'd say- the chances of you being further rejected and abandoned are just as high as finding solace and support. Perhaps it is the overwhelming pessimist in me but life really does seem like one big crapshoot. Surely when you go in to therapy, you have already had quite a few negative life experiences- basically- the world is unreliable. Why are those perceptions wrong or 'ill?' What makes it likely that your future experiences will be any better?
I suppose maybe the trick is that we learn to cope with remembering past disappointments and encountering new ones... Do drugs do that? They didn't do that much for me (although maybe I didn't give them enough of a chance- took one course of Fluoxetine- Prozac.)
Still- I guess my point is- is this 'natural?' Is it even 'natural' to be able to cope with some of the lives we've lived WITHOUT becoming depressed? Just WHAT are they trying to turn us in to? I can't help but wonder if it's zombies when I look at my friends experience...
I tend to focus on work because that has been a major source of 'depression' for me in the past. 1 in 3 of my friend's work colleagues are on anti depressants! From what I understand, they dull down her emotions, flattening everything out.
Perhaps it's a narcissistic thing to say but I think SO many people end up in dull, dead end jobs that they are over qualified for and become bored, frustrated and depressed as a result (plus, their employers treat them like shit.) Of course- the ideal would be for them to be able to find a better job. Still- this isn't always possible. There is terribly fierce competition for starters and the already 'depressed' person may have less fight and confidence than their competitors. (Although perhaps therapy does help with this.)
Rather than that though, my friend and many others seem to be on these mind numbing pills that (maybe) allow them to do jobs that are more robotic.
Still- that's a digression. My main point to this thread is- Is mild to moderate depression an 'illness' or- a perfectly rational way to perceive the world?
In relation to assisted suicide: If it is an 'illness,' can it be cured? If not- surely assisted suicide should be granted to a person. If it is not an illness- should someone in a 'rational' state of mind also be given access to assisted suicide? (I'm guessing we'll say yes but I wonder what the 'normies' would say if they did even conceed that some 'rationally' thinking, 'well' people ALSO want to kill themselves...)
A long rambling thread- sorry if it's been a total bore and not really said anything new (again!) The truth is- I'm distracting myself from job hunting (again... Oops!) I hope you are coping in your corner of the world.
Rather selfishly, I'm focusing on someone like me. I have little doubt that I would be diagnosed with mild to moderate depression if I went to my GP now. I have been in the past. I suppose it's a sort of higher functioning depression though... Most of my lethargy comes through laziness- I can get out of bed, I do maintain personal hygiene, I do for the majority of the time sleep ok, I can hold down a job, my appetite is fine.
As I've mentioned before- suicidal ideation seems linked to depression in popular opinion. (Which is why I'm posting this here rather than in off-topic.)
Depression is seen as a distortion of thinking- or- a mental illness. It seems to be a pivotal reason as to why there is such opposition to the mentally ill/suicidal being granted assisted euthanasia- because we're not thinking clearly- so need to be protected from our inner demons (I suppose...)
I really wanted to focus on this idea of depression (specifically mild to moderate) as an 'illness' though. Perhaps I'm wrong but I imagine the majority of depressions come about as a response to a bad life circumstance. I am aware that it CAN happen to otherwise optimistic people (a friend of mine developed depression as a side effect to the medication they were on.) Still- I would imagine for the majority of people, there was/continues to be a trigger. (I also suspect you can be predisposed to develop it through genetics- although again- I imagine life circumstances have a role to play.)
Surely- for starters- this is a natural reaction. If something traumatic or just a realisation of profound dissatisfaction occurs- you're not going to be happy about it! I suppose the definition for a depressive disorder rather than just sadness is that it is prolonged and that it starts to mess with all your thinking- ie. you start to not enjoy anything anymore- even things that used to give you pleasure.
I don't know how I feel about that- on the one hand- it makes a kind of sense... Our brains are learning machines after all. When we practice at something a lot, those neurological pathways become reinforced and we become good or 'natural' at something. Makes sense that- if you think negatively a lot- you'll become good at that too! Still again- is this 'illness' or is it just the brain doing what it does?
I've found that during my brief experiences of therapy, they try to work out what brings (or brought you) joy- in the hopes you can find your way back there. Not to say I'm criticising that. It's more this idea of- your way of (learned) thinking has now become wrong or 'ill.'
So- for example- my college therapist identified my best friend as a former source of joy (and I've noticed that a few other threads on friendship have popped up here recently.) It was a fair enough observation but in my experience (and that of others here), friendship isn't brilliantly reliable. Certainly not as an emotional crutch. In fact, I'd say- the chances of you being further rejected and abandoned are just as high as finding solace and support. Perhaps it is the overwhelming pessimist in me but life really does seem like one big crapshoot. Surely when you go in to therapy, you have already had quite a few negative life experiences- basically- the world is unreliable. Why are those perceptions wrong or 'ill?' What makes it likely that your future experiences will be any better?
I suppose maybe the trick is that we learn to cope with remembering past disappointments and encountering new ones... Do drugs do that? They didn't do that much for me (although maybe I didn't give them enough of a chance- took one course of Fluoxetine- Prozac.)
Still- I guess my point is- is this 'natural?' Is it even 'natural' to be able to cope with some of the lives we've lived WITHOUT becoming depressed? Just WHAT are they trying to turn us in to? I can't help but wonder if it's zombies when I look at my friends experience...
I tend to focus on work because that has been a major source of 'depression' for me in the past. 1 in 3 of my friend's work colleagues are on anti depressants! From what I understand, they dull down her emotions, flattening everything out.
Perhaps it's a narcissistic thing to say but I think SO many people end up in dull, dead end jobs that they are over qualified for and become bored, frustrated and depressed as a result (plus, their employers treat them like shit.) Of course- the ideal would be for them to be able to find a better job. Still- this isn't always possible. There is terribly fierce competition for starters and the already 'depressed' person may have less fight and confidence than their competitors. (Although perhaps therapy does help with this.)
Rather than that though, my friend and many others seem to be on these mind numbing pills that (maybe) allow them to do jobs that are more robotic.
Still- that's a digression. My main point to this thread is- Is mild to moderate depression an 'illness' or- a perfectly rational way to perceive the world?
In relation to assisted suicide: If it is an 'illness,' can it be cured? If not- surely assisted suicide should be granted to a person. If it is not an illness- should someone in a 'rational' state of mind also be given access to assisted suicide? (I'm guessing we'll say yes but I wonder what the 'normies' would say if they did even conceed that some 'rationally' thinking, 'well' people ALSO want to kill themselves...)
A long rambling thread- sorry if it's been a total bore and not really said anything new (again!) The truth is- I'm distracting myself from job hunting (again... Oops!) I hope you are coping in your corner of the world.
