Story is loving someone more dangerous?

[blckfurmutt]

i was very hopeless for the longest time ever. touch deprived. no love in my life. recently i was able to experience true love, i was held and caressed through my SI. he comforted me. for hours and hours. i opened up to him about my plans and he was there for me. but eventually as people do, he had to go. he told me we'd see each other again soon but i wish i would've been gone that day so he wouldn't leave. now that he's gone all i feel is pain. i thought love would help. love is making it worse. it's giving me more reasons. is being in love harmful for people like us? it gives me more motivation to cbt. he told me i cant cbt because we'll see each other again soon. but i can't wait. it's just so much harder now that i know what love feels like and now it's gone again. it's worse. should i give up on love and never speak to him again? does anyone else have any similar experiences, please share. i don't wanna be the only one feeling this way.

 

[girlsboysthems]

we share some similarities. i too have found a signifiicant other that is patient and caring and we stay at eachothers on weekends. however, i feel guilty for roping him into caring and loving me just to tear him to pieces when i kill myself. the guilt is unreal, i do not want him to know it will be a suicide, now im really keen on making it an accident...

love makes everything worse, i thought it would be better.

 

[blckfurmutt]

we share some similarities. i too have found a signifiicant other that is patient and caring and we stay at eachothers on weekends. however, i feel guilty for roping him into caring and loving me just to tear him to pieces when i kill myself. the guilt is unreal, i do not want him to know it will be a suicide, now im really keen on making it an accident...

love makes everything worse, i thought it would be better.

i'm sorry for everything youre going through. but it seems like no matter what he would grieve you regardless of how you decide leave. thats just love. but i am glad you experience some kind of relief from his care. i'm wishing you the best, sending hugs.

 

[girlsboysthems]

i'm sorry for everything youre going through. but it seems like no matter what he would grieve you regardless of how you decide leave. thats just love. but i am glad you experience some kind of relief from his care. i'm wishing you the best, sending hugs.

thank you. regardless of my experience i do think you should pursue your relationship with him though.

 

[blckfurmutt]

thank you. regardless of my experience i do think you should pursue your relationship with him though.

o7 i am following your instructions sergeant girlsboysthems