Venting Is life worth it in the end

[squillykilly]

I can't stop thinking tonight. All I do is embarrass myself, is it even worth it to keep living if I make a fool of myself every moment of the day. Is it even worth living if I don't fit in anywhere. Is it even fucking wotht it if I make everyone uncomfortable. I'm the worst person ever, I can't stand myself, I just want to have peace, I want heaven, I want to like myself. My own personal heaven where everyone likes me and I'm not a failure. Where I'm charismatic, and say the right things no matter what. Where I get all the birthday parties I could ever want and no one cancels on me, why is life so worth living when I could have my own paradise of happiness. I hate this man. I'm so alone

 

[Unlucky777]

I question every day "is life worth living?"

I agree that I share those same feelings. I don't know what else to say besides I can relate to almost everything

 

[itsgone2]

Same as @Unlucky777 i can relate to almost all. For us no probably not worth living. For many, yes. We aren't that lucky.

 

[Forever Sleep]

It's not something that has a general answer I believe because, we all have different needs. Different intensities of need too. So- it's also whether we can either fulfil that intensity of need or, diminish the need to begin with.

But, it has to be answered individually I think. Is it likely I'll get what I want? Is it even realistic I'll get what I want? Very few people are universally adored. Will it even be enough if I get it? Can I figure out why I need this so much and work on that instead?

I doubt you are as hated as you believe though. We likely all make social faux pas. It just feels so intensely worse if we feel social anxiety I guess or have a deep need that others admire us.

The more practical problem I think is- is it worth risking rejection and embarassment to pursue these things to begin with? Again, I think we can only answer that on an individual basis. Will we suffer more to be alone but maybe lonely or risk being around others and not being as fully accepted as we'd hope for? It's all weighing up risk I suppose.

 

[Reishi]

That up to you to decide