Is it worth it?

[KMS]

Every night I fall into a deep depression. It's not a wave, like my therapist says. It's a tsunami. I can't take it anymore. I can't see a point in living if it will always come to this. I can't take the cycle. How can I look forward to anything if if always ends in this? So. I'm here. Looking for options. A way out. I'm done.
Only problem is, I am in a group home now. And they check on me every hour. So whatever it has to be has to be quick. Or something I can leave the house and do.
I just can't keep living this life.

 

[Dizzy_Dreams]

Every night I fall into a deep depression. It's not a wave, like my therapist says. It's a tsunami. I can't take it anymore. I can't see a point in living if it will always come to this. I can't take the cycle. How can I look forward to anything if if always ends in this? So. I'm here. Looking for options. A way out. I'm done.
Only problem is, I am in a group home now. And they check on me every hour. So whatever it has to be has to be quick. Or something I can leave the house and do.
I just can't keep living this life.

Have you found therapy helpful at all?

 

[Sensei]

Every night I fall into a deep depression. It's not a wave, like my therapist says. It's a tsunami. I can't take it anymore. I can't see a point in living if it will always come to this. I can't take the cycle. How can I look forward to anything if if always ends in this? So. I'm here. Looking for options. A way out. I'm done.
Only problem is, I am in a group home now. And they check on me every hour. So whatever it has to be has to be quick. Or something I can leave the house and do.
I just can't keep living this life.

I'm sorry to hear that you're in such pain. :( If it's a cycle it might be something more serious than a depression. Has you therapist considered the possiblity that you might be in the bipolar spectrum?