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mapleboy
sleepy...
- May 22, 2023
- 56
I want to spend the rest of this year doing fun things with my partner, and then kill myself while I'm happiest. I don't want to experience anymore hardships, potential or certain. Being alive and still struggling with my mental health and trauma is agonizing. The only thing that would bring me peace is my own death. I would like to live my life with my partner to the fullest, and then quit while I'm ahead. I wouldn't want anything else. I don't want to get better anymore, I just want to experience what it's like to love and be loved for a little bit, before it all inevitably crashes down. Is it strange to want to do that? To finally live the happy life I've always wanted, and then throw it all away before shit hits the fan?