Is it weird to want to die if you're happy?

[mapleboy]

I want to spend the rest of this year doing fun things with my partner, and then kill myself while I'm happiest. I don't want to experience anymore hardships, potential or certain. Being alive and still struggling with my mental health and trauma is agonizing. The only thing that would bring me peace is my own death. I would like to live my life with my partner to the fullest, and then quit while I'm ahead. I wouldn't want anything else. I don't want to get better anymore, I just want to experience what it's like to love and be loved for a little bit, before it all inevitably crashes down. Is it strange to want to do that? To finally live the happy life I've always wanted, and then throw it all away before shit hits the fan?

 

[Forever Sleep]

Doesn't seem strange at all. Why not make the most out of being alive while you can- if you can? Seems like the better way to go out to me. I hope you have as much fun as you can.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

If you've lived your life it's probably easier to CTB or to accept death bc we did a lot of things in life we wanted to do. If (mental) health is a threat long-term, CTB can be an option before it gets worse to prevent yourself from further suffering.

From this point of view it's not weird.

 

[dolemitedrums]

Hey might as well enjoy life if you can and then who knows...you'll either end things on top or maybe you'll find it's worth continuing. Either way, better than being miserable.

 

[kunikuzushi]

That's what I want to do too

 

[madmore]

Not weird at all. You might as well enjoy it to the fullest and leave on a high, many people with chronic physical illness do the same thing so I don't think it should be made weird to have this same attitude with chronic mental suffering.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

If you are overall content with life and no sudden devastating trigger happens, then it would be unusual.

But that doesn't seem to be true in your case. You'd not overall content with life but you're able to feel.some joy and you are trying to maximize that before you go.

 

[outrider567]

i don't know what the word happy means anymore