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- Sep 3, 2018
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Sorry for any typos because of my eye problems by the way first and foremost. For me it's kind of silly and weird because I've become very superstitious over the past 11 months after dealing with a lot of health issues and being trapped inside the house even seeing faces and shit because I guess I got cabin fever or whatever I don't know I keep seeing and hearing references about people going blind from the books I read or from the TV I listen to etc. etc. And I don't even intentionally try to search for them. I see them or listen to them so often that it's making me overthink that I won't succeed with the SN method and thqt it will make me go blind. And since I have a problems already are my chances of going blind more likely then? I'm so scared I'm so scared I've waited the past three fucking years to finally do this and this is my only method that I have felt comfortable to do I don't have any money to buy a gun or a gas tank and I don't have the balls to jump or to do anything like that and I don't know what to do. What the fuck I'm so scared and anxious overthinking all this now. I feel like I'm going to fuck this up somehow just like I've fuck my life up. Fucking goddamn.