ruudd
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- Aug 16, 2020
- 8
Hi all,
I am just wondering what u opinion is into this situation.
My parents died a few years ago, so i did take care of my brother he has a mental disorder. After a long time of living with him at home it was better for him to go to a
healthcare facility ( He can't walk also ).
My life is horrible, but compare it to him my life is good.
I go only 1x a week to him because of the distance and i feel extremly tired each day, most of the time he looks extremly depressed, i can see it on hes face it hurts alot to see it, i can see and feel the pain he has of missing my parents. i can feel the pain he has of having no friends, no girlfriend, can't walk, no normal life, nobody to talk, no goals in life just waiting for the dead, its just a agony.
Last years i have not see him laugh, only complain and be sad/angry.
We have almost no family left also, they all already dead. Now u think maybe we are old, but my brother is just 30.
In the healthcare facility, there are only people they are 5 times worse mental disorder than he got and age of 60+, my brother got a very light mental disorder, just iq lower than normal peoples. Into the healthcare facility ofcours there are nurse, but they spend almost no time on him.
I wish my life was normal and i wish i did got much money, so i could buying a house in hes city, i wish i could make a own family so he could be a part of it so he would feel less lonly also, but i am depressed of failing in life.
I wish i was a better brother for him, because of all my own problems i can't do much for him.
I think its selfish to suicide, he got nobody left expect me, i am hes only friend, we call each day and i try to act i am happy, so he maybe will feel better, i ask him 10 times a hour how it goes because i can see and feel he don't say the true how he really feels...
I am just wondering what u opinion is into this situation.
My parents died a few years ago, so i did take care of my brother he has a mental disorder. After a long time of living with him at home it was better for him to go to a
healthcare facility ( He can't walk also ).
My life is horrible, but compare it to him my life is good.
I go only 1x a week to him because of the distance and i feel extremly tired each day, most of the time he looks extremly depressed, i can see it on hes face it hurts alot to see it, i can see and feel the pain he has of missing my parents. i can feel the pain he has of having no friends, no girlfriend, can't walk, no normal life, nobody to talk, no goals in life just waiting for the dead, its just a agony.
Last years i have not see him laugh, only complain and be sad/angry.
We have almost no family left also, they all already dead. Now u think maybe we are old, but my brother is just 30.
In the healthcare facility, there are only people they are 5 times worse mental disorder than he got and age of 60+, my brother got a very light mental disorder, just iq lower than normal peoples. Into the healthcare facility ofcours there are nurse, but they spend almost no time on him.
I wish my life was normal and i wish i did got much money, so i could buying a house in hes city, i wish i could make a own family so he could be a part of it so he would feel less lonly also, but i am depressed of failing in life.
I wish i was a better brother for him, because of all my own problems i can't do much for him.
I think its selfish to suicide, he got nobody left expect me, i am hes only friend, we call each day and i try to act i am happy, so he maybe will feel better, i ask him 10 times a hour how it goes because i can see and feel he don't say the true how he really feels...