Kmp99
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- Jul 17, 2020
- 8
So to start this off, I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder at the age of 16. I am now 21 and still haven't found the right medication cocktail that helped in any way shape or form. I was rushed to the hospital yesterday as I had a HUGE breakdown due to being in a manic state which I can normally sort of control. I was discharged with my doctor giving me some diazepam to calm me down and saying they are going to keep a very close eye on me and see me every week while I wait for my psychiatrist to contact me and they are going to put me on quetiapine or lithium. I am no longer allowed to have my own medication so my partner has to be in control over them as I am a suicide risk and I don't have access to my own money as I am reckless with spending. I don't want to have to go through the rest of my life struggling to control my mood and hurting the people around me. I also have TERRIBLE anxiety which stops me from even being able to go to the supermarket without having a panic attack. I want to die so badly but I don't want to hurt everyone more than I already am. All I want to know right now is...
Is this life worth living or is it worth hanging on for a little while longer.
Is this life worth living or is it worth hanging on for a little while longer.